I can hear Mike yelling and swearing and smashing shit down the hall.
I just sit, and cry, and cry, and cry.
Jimmy finally comes and checks on me after five minutes.
"He's pissed."
"No shit."
"I just talked to him and he doesn't want us here anymore."
My jaw falls open, "what? Are you serious?"
He nods.
"Where the fuck are we supposed to go now?"
"Home."
"I can't go back there Jimmy. This is home. "
"Then we'll go to my house."
"Okay, fine."
I go into Mikes room to get my shit, he's laying on the bed.
"I'm just coming to grab my shit.."
"Why?"
"You're kicking us out."
"No. I told Jimmy you guys have to stay in the trailer for a bit."
"Wait. You aren't kicking us out?"
He sits up, "Why would I? You guys have nowhere else to go. I'm pissed, but not that pissed."
"Then why would he tell me that?"
"Because he has issues Ellie. How long will it take you to get that through your thick fucking skull?"
I stand there in shock and confusion.
"Go talk to your boyfriend."
He spits.
I leave the room and find Jimmy.
"Jimmy? Why would you tell me he's kicking us out?"
"I don't want to stay with someone who's banishing us to the trailer."
"That's not your decision to make for me."
"You can't trust my judgment? For once?" He raises his voice.
"Jimmy, your mom's an alcoholic, if we stay with her she'll trigger me. I don't know if I can do that."
"Please trust me Ellie."
I sigh, "staying here is the first time I've actually felt safe. You and Mike are my family. So if you want to make the decision to risk ruining that then that's fine. But don't get mad when my mental health starts to decline."
I look over and see Mike standing at the bottom of the stairs.
"Do you mean that Ellie?"
He asks.
"Yes. Of course I do. This is my home, I've never felt more safe and happy than I am here, with the two of you."
Jimmy and Mike look at eachother.
"We'll stay, if, Mike is okay with it."
Mike sighs, "I can't say no to you Ellie. You guys can have the downstairs, Jimmy's room, the bathroom and the laundry room. It's yours."
I look up at him, "really?"
"Yeah man, I love you guys."
"I love you too," I run up and hug him.
"Yeah me too man," Jimmy joins the hug.
I run to the kitchen and grab my wallet and hand it to Jimmy.
"We drinking tonight?" I look at both of them.
"Fuck yeah we are!" Mike grabs his liquor from the cupboard.
