GUARDIAN DEMON | BL ✔

CHAPTER 55

Kilo was stunned. No tears came, but his heart was crying. The angel kept the star in his arms for a few more moments before reluctantly pulling away. Castyr did not stop Kilo from dropping his arms from around him. Kilo brought his hand to Castyr's head and ruffled the boy's hair. The star just looked up at the angel blankly in response.

Thousands of memories rushed through Kilo's head as he looked at his star fondly, thinking of how he got to love Castyr all over again. There was not a single thought of regret or disappointment. Kilo would hate himself if he felt disappointed at that moment. Castyr was awake and safe. That was all he could ask for. If Castyr did not remember him, so be it. That would not change Kilo's love; nothing could change Kilo's love.

"How do you feel? Are you in any pain?" Kilo made his voice as soft as possible as he remembered Adelle's words. Castyr was very vulnerable at that moment, especially to Kilo since he was the first person Castyr had encountered after his coma. Anything Kilo did and said would shape who Castyr would become. Kilo wanted Castyr to be able to decide who he wanted to be, but for now, the angel wanted his star to feel safe and protected.

Castyr responded to Kilo's soft words by shaking his head slowly. Kilo gave a small sigh of relief. "Are you hungry?" The angel inquired after a moment of silence had passed. The star nodded and blinked his big eyes in response. "Cute," Kilo smiled and ruffled Castyr's hair before getting off the bed. Castyr watched the angel leave before slowly following Kilo down the hall and to the kitchen.

The star stood in front of the bar while Kilo rummaged around for ingredients and cooking pans. Turning in a small spin, Castyr looked around at the house before his eyes landed on Kilo. For some reason, the star's heart fluttered whenever he looked at the angel, though Castyr did not know why. Castyr had all his memories of Kilo, and he was smiling in a lot of them. But the star did not know why he was smiling.

Why do people smile? Why does Kilo smile at me? Why did he hug me when I woke up? I want to know.

Castyr wanted to know those things as they were the first things he had experienced since waking, so the star walked around the bar and wrapped his arms around Kilo just as the angel had when Castyr woke up. Kilo froze, but Castyr's heart did that thing again. It fluttered! Is this why people hug? I don't know if this is supposed to happen, but I like it. Wait...how do I know I like it? Castyr's racing thoughts stopped when Kilo turned around in the star's arms and held him in his embrace. Castyr became extremely calm when he felt the angel's arms around him.

Instinctively, Castyr turned his head into Kilo's neck. Oooh. I like this. I like it a lot, his scent. The star's entire body relaxed, and a small sigh escaped his lips. What was that?? Why did I make that noise? Kilo seemed to like it as he held the star tighter and began rubbing Castyr's back. Castyr had not the slightest idea as to why the angel was holding him and why he felt tingly with Kilo's touch. What Castyr did know was that he liked it. No...it is more than just like. I have been longing for this. I think I...missed this. Does that make sense? Eh, I don't know. Nothing has made sense since I woke up. I felt empty. I did not have any thoughts or emotions until Kilo saw me and smiled. Oh, how I love his smile. Wait...did I just say L. O. V. E?? I do not even know what love is, but maybe I did. Maybe I knew it before.

Does Kilo know what love is? I remember hearing about love. Did I experience it? Has Kilo experienced it? I feel like I am missing something, no, a lot of things. How do I get them back?

A teardrop pulled the star from his thoughts. Is Kilo crying? Why? Why do people cry? Castyr pulled away from the angel's arms to look up at the man before him. I have seen Kilo cry before...but why?

"Why are you crying?" Castyr inquired of the angel, speaking for the first time since Hades.

Kilo smiled at the star's question. "Because I'm happy."