A Mad Woman, Allison.

CHAPTER FIVE: NON-COMPLEMENTARY

I woke up with my eyes hurting caused of too much light slipping through my window and my head almost bursting out. A sudden realization went into my mind. Shit.

When I opened my eyes slowly, I saw no one in my room. Was that all a dream? Impossible, I felt it even if I'm half-conscious. Then, I saw a note.

‘Dumiretso ka na sa school,
umuwi muna ako sa bahay
susunod na lang ako.’

So it wasn't a dream. Kung mamalasin ka nga naman, may utang na loob pa ako sa mokong. Fuck it.

I arrived at the university earlier than our first period. Though I just decided to wait inside our room since it's just some minutes ahead. I heard the girls chitchatting. They don't notice me coming at all. They're that busy, huh? What are they talking about?

I leaned closer so that I'll hear them clearly. They're talking about Ryan—I meant Javier. Ryan Javier.

“Grabe si Ryan, 'no, kasisimula pa lang halos ng semester, may target na agad. And guess what, newbie pa!” A girl with medium-length hair said.

Is she talking about me?

I was about to interrupt them but the girl beside her answered, “Sus, parang hindi ka pa sanay. Eh, 'di ba nga, tirador ng newbie 'yan. Hahaha. Ginagamit pagiging class president niya.” Umirap pa siya.

“Omsim! Nangyan, kada taon yata may bago, e. Pusanggala,” said the girl with a ponytail.

“Teh, akala ko nga ay sila pa ni Hanika. Hindi na pala,” she paused then continued, “Nung lumabas lang 'yong chika na binantayan ni Ryan si newbie Allison kahapon hanggang umaga, hindi ko pa malalamang wala na silang something ni Nika babes.” The girl beside the medium-lengthed hair girl then crossed her legs. 

“Sayang kayo,” said the medium-lengthed hair girl also pointing to the girl they called Hanika.

She stayed silent. I walked out of the room and went to the girl's restroom.

Something is aching in my chest. I'm not sure what it is. I'm not so sure what exactly the reason I'm feeling this way. Is it because of the sudden coming of the truth that Javier's our class president, and he's just doing those stupid things to me because he's a goddamn womanizer? But I am not his woman to play with, for fucking pete's sake! Damn it!

The way he comforted me, the good things he said to me, and the way he kissed me that day disgust me. It was all an act. I thought he was different, but it just turned out I thought wrong of a man again. I am so mad right now that I want to break the mirror in front of me thinking of it as his face. I want to fucking break his face the moment I see him. And break his manhood, too. Damn him.

“Allison.” My mind came back to reality when I heard a voice.

It was the girl named Hanika.

I faced her. “Hmm? Hi.” It was a fake smile.

“Narinig mo ba? 'Yong usapan namin,” she asked.

“Yeah. What about it?” I'm trying to stay calm. She's out of this. She's also a victim of that bastard.

“Lahat ng sinabi nila,” she paused. “Hindi 'yon totoo. Huwag kang magalit kay Ryan, hindi naman siya gano'ng tao.”

“Gano'n what?” I was confused.

“Gano'n... Katulad ng iniisip mo,” she said.

I tried to maintain my posture. “I think you thought of him wrong.” Nangunot ang noo niya sa isinagot ko. I proceeded with my sentence, “Your friends are right. He's indeed a jerk.”