A Mad Woman, Allison.

CHAPTER FOURTEEN: ADULTHOOD

ALLISON'S POV

The event ended and not even a single shadow of Javier was seen around the venue. I was glad they still cheered for me regardless of what they found out. The crowd were also in support.

They decided to celebrate after but I can't get him off my mind—I still thought of him somehow. He should've been there at least because of his duties. A part of me hopes he'll be okay when I leave. I excused myself to go to the restroom but the truth is, I'm looking for Ryan. I went to the empty classroom kung saan niya ako dinala and there, I found him so drunk. He's drunk on his thoughts he's speaking to himself.

“I don't want to lose you, Alli. Hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko kaya,” he repeatedly murmured. “Pero kung ayaw mo na talaga akong makita, at least let me love you from afar. Please don't leave. We'll fix this, just don't leave. Don't leave me.”

A tear escaped from my eye. I called him, “Ryan.”

“I won't, Ryan. I promise.” I know what I promised him is a fabricated lie. I had to lie to let him be relaxed. I had to comfort him and let him feel he was loved so that when I leave, it'll only partially hurt. I called one of our professors whom I think is close to Ryan and told him he's drunk. When he arrived, I smiled at him and let out to look after Ryan for me. I also asked him not to say anything: that he saw me and that I was here to get to Ryan. I sighed after I left the room. This is for good... For the both of us.

I arrived in Germany and they welcomed me with a big and warm group hug. I missed them. I lived my life differently when I stepped into this country again. I went to parties. I socialized more with new people. Live, love, and laugh. Well, I'm still studying Law here, and I'm doing perfectly great. I got to live my life to the fullest and pursue my passion as well. I know I'm not finding love in this place but men were chasing after me. Well, only one got lucky to receive my answer as a ‘yes’. He was also a family friend. We were doing fine not until I found out he was cheating on me. But I didn't break up with him yet. Instead, I played his fucking game. I also cheated but with a better man.

Now he's mad in front of me saying he wants to break up. How dare he say that? He was obviously the first one to cheat between us. I just gave him the taste of his medicine. “Okay. But you know what? In case you didn't know, cheating is a choice. And you're the one at fault because you cheated on me first. You're the one accountable because you cheated on your girlfriend.”

I didn't do serious relationships anymore after that. I just did it for the thrill. I also got connected with Marga and Chenoa again. Marga, because she's still part of the modelling agency. I heard she and her boyfriend got engaged last month. Ako raw ang kukunin nilang ninang on their firstborn. Chenoa, on the other hand, became a nurse. She also didn't try hanging out with guys because of what happened to her. I was a witness, and I can say she's been hurt by the last guy she loved. I couldn't blame him. He was just honest about his feelings and if I were him, I'd also do the same. I know it's not his intention to hurt Chenoa. He just doesn't like her. He was still my friend, after all, and I'm happy for him now that he found the right guy.

A message popped up in my phone notifications. It was from Jules, a friend of mine during college. He was asking if I can go to his party and that most people invited are our batchmates. I messaged him my schedule is free.

Jules and I were like college rivals. He was acing my favourite subject while I was doing my best to beat him. I was very passionate about it, too. And anyone who comes to block my way to success will eventually go to my death note. Kidding aside, he's now a good friend to me. He apologized right after our graduation about his jerky move and confessed his feelings. He explained to me he just did that to catch my attention. A colossal dick move, indeed.