Love again (Norenmin)

10

By the second day of Jaemin sulking around angrily Jeno decides to get to the bottom of it so he finds Renjun in the morning and asks.
"Ok, what the fuck is his problem? He won't talk to me, look at me, hell he even avoids being in a room with me?" Renjun looks away kind of nervously.
"I don't know, Jen. He's just going through something, I guess." Jeno frowns. He knows it has to be more but he can't ask him now because he already left for the day. He walks to the coffee shop to grab his favorite iced americano. He used to hate coffee but it was Jaemin who got him started drinking these. Of course he drinks way less of it than Jaemin but that's another story. As he waits in line he thinks fondly of all of the times Jaemin would order him one even though he didn't ask and he'd drink it just because. A small smile forms on his face until the cashier gets his attention. When he finally gets his drink he heads to the school. He is dusting and rearranging and making it look nice for his 1st grade class. When his door opens at noon he smiles to see Taeyong standing there.
"Hey Tae, how are things going for second grade prep?" He doesn't respond, he just walks in and closes the door.
"Did you go on a date with my boyfriend?" He asks somewhat angered. Jeno sighs.
"Not really. My friend tried to set me up but as soon as I found out he was yours I didn't think twice about him. Taeyong nods and starts to cry so Jeno hugs him.
"Come on, tell me what's wrong?" He brings him to sit on his desk and sits beside him.
"I don't know, I just thought he'd be back by now. I think he really doesn't love me anymore. This time it must be for good." He lays his head on Jeno's shoulder and he just sits in silent support.
"Hey you should come to dinner on Saturday, you can meet the loves of my life that only love each other, who also happen to be my new roommates." Taeyong is shocked.
"Wait, are these the same ones that you were so depressed about?" He nods with a small smile.
"Yeah they needed a place and I have a room so now we share rent." Taeyong looks at him like he's lost his mind.
"So you just fucking torture yourself?" He asks with a motherly scowl.
"I'm fine, it's nice that I can at least share a space with them. Sometimes it's hard but other times it's amazing." He says softly.
"Just don't get hurt again." Taeyong says before hugging him.
"You either Tae. Maybe you guys need the time apart to figure out what keeps going wrong." He nods and walks to the door.
"I'll see you Saturday then." Jeno nods and smiles brightly.

When he gets home he's excited to tell the others. He thinks they will really like Taeyong, he really gets along well with everyone. He forgot about Jaemin's apparent beef with him though until he walks in and Jaemin immediately gets off the couch to go to his room.
"Jaemin, stop. We need to talk. What did I do?" Jaemin scoffs and turn with angry eyes.
"Why did you lie to us?" Jeno frowns.
"About?" He walks up and crosses his arms as he stares him down.
"You said you weren't seeing anyone." Jeno frowns again.
"I'm not, and even if I was why would it bother you?" Jaemin looks down, not able to look in his intense eyes right now.
"Then what about Jungwoo? Why?" He asks choking up. Jeno is thoroughly confused at this point and starting to get angry.
"Jungwoo is none of your business." He says as he starts to pace.
"Do you love him?" Jeno scoffs.
"What the fuck Jaemin? Why does any of this concern you?" He waits but gets nothing.
"You want the truth Jaem? Fine.
He was here when I had no one, him and I relied on each other at a time when we were both suffering. When we get together we can numb the unimaginable pain that rips through us every fucking day.
He was here when all I wanted was someone to want me. You wouldn't know what it's like to lose who you love and have to sit back on the sidelines. We filled a void for each other. I have a gaping hole in my heart, he helps me numb the pain." He has completely lost control of his emotions at this point and his tears are free falling rapidly.
"Is it so wrong to try to be happy? Is it so wrong to use meaningless sex to feel something, anything? You got your happiness, all I'm trying to do is get through life at this point, so maybe instead of being angry about not knowing every aspect of my life, maybe you could just try to support me." He walks away toward his room defeated. Jaemin has tears rolling down his face as he walks up and spins him around. He cups his cheeks and kisses his lips. It's full of passion and eventually tongue. Jeno's head is still a bit cloudy from all of his emotions as he kisses back just as passionately. When it finally slows and Jaemin backs away just a little Jeno's brain fog lifts.
"What the fuck Jaemin? Why did you? Renjun, why would you make me deceive him like that?" He asks as Jaemin backs away shaking his head no.
"It's ok Jeno." He says before Jeno shakes his head disgusted.
"Stay the fuck away from me." He says before slamming his door.

When Renjun walks in he sees Jaemin staring off into space with tears in his eyes.
"Is everything ok?" He doesn't respond so he just sighs and figures he's still depressed about Jungwoo. He figures if he doesn't make dinner than no one will so he starts cooking. When he is about done Jeno walks into the kitchen. He sees his bloodshot eyes puffy face and is greatly concerned.
"What is going on?" He asks. Jeno walks up and hugs him while sobbing, something he's been doing since earlier.
"I'm sorry, I didn't meant to do it. I was caught up in the moment and he." He stops talking and takes a deep breath.
"He what?" Renjun asks trying to remain the calm one here.
"He k-kissed me and I kissed him back and I never want to hurt you, im so sorry." Renjun rubs his back and turns to shut off his dinner.
"Come on, let's talk." He pulls Jeno in the other room and sits him on the couch. He glances over at Jaemin who looks equally upset then looks down at the floor. Renjun sits on the coffee table in front of them both.
"Remember that party Jaemin and I tried to get you to go to but you said you were busy?" Renjun asks softly.
"Yes." He says in his raspy voice.
"You were so caring and sweet and told us to make sure we stayed together the whole night and take care of each other." He says with a soft smile, Jaemin smiles a little too.
"Yeah and you really did." Jeno says sadly.
"Yeah, we did and we got really drunk and we slept together." Jeno looks up surprised.
"Yeah, we didn't want anyone to know that we started that way so we just didn't tell." He chuckles softly.
"We decided that since we obviously were attracted to each other and after talking a lot we found out that we indeed liked each other. So that day after waking up together and talking for a long time we decided that you should be the first to know. So you were." Jeno scoffs.
"I remember, but what does this have to do with anything?" He asks still not able to look Jaemin in the eyes.
"It only took weeks before we started to feel off. Then the further you distanced yourself from us the more we we felt it. We weren't whole." Jeno looks up with a frown.
"Finally after we had a fight over something stupid, Jaemin went out and got drunk and when he came back he told me the truth. Then I let him sober up and asked him in the morning. He quickly confirmed it and I felt a huge weight lift off my shoulders." Jeno sighs and looks Renjun in the eyes again.
"Both Jaemin and I, we, uh, fuck this is hard. P-please don't think badly of us b-but Jeno we are in love with you." Jeno feels the air leave his lungs.
"We love each other very much b-but we love you too and we don't feel whole without you and I know this is strange and I feel like we are ambushing you but I don't mind that you kissed, because I want that too. We both want it." He takes a deep breath and takes Jeno's hands.
"Jeno we want you to date us, we want you to be a part of our relationship." Jeno frowns and stands, he quickly turns and heads to the door.
"Wh-where are you going?" Renjun asks. Jeno just turns and shakes his head before walking out. Renjun goes to Jaemin and hugs his waist and cries.
"I'm sorry, I had to tell him now." Jaemin shushes him.
"It's my fault we're in this mess, I was jealous and I'm sorry." After they sit for an hour hoping to see him come home, they give up and go to bed.

Jeno has been walking non stop. It's now two AM and he's tired. He gets back to his apartment and quietly opens the door and sneaks into his room. He quickly crashes, not sure how to feel.