Love again (Norenmin)

11

I feel so bad about their concert. For the fans, all of their staff who work so hard to get those ready but mostly for the Dreamies, they were so excited and I'm sure they feel awful. I hope Mark and Renjun make a quick recovery and that everyone else stays healthy too.

The next day Jeno sleeps, he sleeps until at least afternoon. It wasn't a good sleep by any means he woke up multiple times and heard those words again. He knows he should be happy, this is all he's ever wanted in life but he also feels a little betrayed. They've been together for a year, he's been hurting for a year. It shouldn't be this easy, he thinks it's way to good to be true.
He gets up and pees and goes right back to bed. He has no appetite and all he wants to do is hibernate in his bed. He's been here before, his depression once had him in bed for four days. He didn't care and if it wasn't for Jisung using his spare key to come and rescue him, who knows what could have happened.
By 7PM Renjun is worried. He's not sure if he came out while they were at work today but he hasn't seen him come to eat and he's really worried.
"J-Jaemin, d-do you think he hates me? I mean he kissed you back so he probably likes you but he probably thinks I'm weird and probably wants me to move out." Jaemin sighs and plays with his hair.
"Don't talk like that. He could never hate you, he's probably just confused and a little overwhelmed. How about you make him some soup, he really likes seaweed soup and I'm sure he would appreciate it." Renjun nods and smiles, he feels better having a purpose.
When he gets it done and plated almost an hour later he carries the tray out and gestures for Jaemin to help him. Jaemin knocks and they get no response and Jaemin can tell it's doing nothing for Renjun's state of mind. He announces that they are coming in as he opens the door. They just see a lump under the blankets so Renjun hurries and sets the tray down.
"I made you some soup Jen. Please eat." He says quietly. He pulls the blankets back slowly to see him curled in a ball and touches his shoulder. He flinches hard which is good in a sense but it hurts the smaller.
"I'm sorry." He whispers.
"I'm sorry if we hurt you or if two men loving you is disgusting to you b-but I will never be sorry for loving you, I only regret not telling you sooner." He covers him back up but leaves his head exposed and plays with his hair.
"Please eat, we are so worried about you." He stops himself from saying more and walks out. Jaemin who's been silent since last night finally speaks.
"Jeno, I'm so sorry for what I did to you yesterday. I should have never thrown myself at you and caused this whole thing. We were trying to work up our courage to finally tell you this weekend but I got jealous and I'm sorry." He walks to the door.
"It's ok to hate me but please, don't hurt Junie, he's suffered a lot and m-most of the time I feel it's my fault. Just please eat the soup he made, I'll come and get the dishes later."  He walks out to find Renjun dishing up soup for them and sits at the table across from him. They eat in silence, Renjun's tears keep landing in his soup but he eats it anyway.

Jeno is upset and unsure but he never wants to hurt either of them so of course he sits up and eats the soup. He tries to eat it slow and savor the flavors but he's hungrier than he thought he was. He wishes he could have more but he can't leave his room just yet. He quietly sets the tray by the door and slips into his bathroom to pee before crawling back in bed. He calls the one person, he thinks can help him through this.
"Can you come and see me tomorrow? I'm sorry, I'm so sorry to do this b-but you're the only one." He hangs up and falls back asleep.

By the next day at noon the two are greatly concerned, they have never seen him this way and to think they caused it is killing them. They both missed work today in hopes of being able to at least see his face and maybe talk a little. They brought him some coffee and breakfast but they aren't sure he even ate it. Jaemin hops off the couch when the doorbell rings and swings it open quickly.
"Oh hi mom, what are you doing here?" He asks quietly. She smiles softly and hugs him.
"I'm here to see Jeno." She walks past and says hi to Renjun.
"Ma, i don't think he's up for visitors today." He says trying to stop her. She frowns and turns to him.
"Nonsense, he asked me to come. Now which room is his?" She asks and Jaemin points with an obvious frown. He looks at Renjun who looks even more confused than the other.

"Oh sweetie, what happened?" She asks softly as he sits up and gives her space to sit too.
"I'm sorry for needing your therapy again but I think you might understand me better than anyone." She nods with a soft smile.
"They told me they love me, that they don't feel whole without me. I know I should be happy, I know this is everything I've ever wanted but I hurt for so long and it's hard to accept you know?" She smiles in understanding and holds him in her arms.

Jaemin is pacing the floor, he can't even imagine why Jeno called his mother and not his own. Renjun busies himself cleaning as they wait. Jaemin decides to make lunch for his mother and them. He works it up quick and when he's finished him and Renjun knock. She comes to the door and accepts the tray of food. He tries to peek in to see Jeno but he can't.

"Eat up, get your strength up. You have a long night ahead of you." Jeno nods with a small smile. Yes she managed to get him to smile again.
"Ok, I think I'm ready. Are you staying?" He asks her.
"Oh no sweetie, I'm sorry but you have to do this on your own." He nods and slowly stands, he holds his hand out for her and helps her up. They walk out and find them doing dishes so she goes in to thank them for lunch and say goodbye. When hugging her, Renjun makes eye contact with Jeno. He gestures for them to come in there so they follow her out. Jeno walks her to the door and she engulfs him once more.
"Be strong, feel everything and tell your truth."  He nods in her shoulder and says goodbye.
Jaemin and Renjun are bracing themselves for heartbreak. Jaemin takes Renjun's hand in his and rubs his thumb along the back of it to comfort him as he sits on the table in front of them. He sighs and watches as they can't even lift their heads.