Love again (Norenmin)

36

When Jeno got back to the school he walked right into Taeyong's classroom and gave him a beautiful bouquet of flowers. Of course Taeyong knows it wasn't his intention to give him flowers but the students are coming back from lunch so they can't talk about it.
"Thank you." He says as Jeno walks out with a curt nod.
At the end of the day Taeyong observes Jeno standing outside his class smiling and waving to the kids as they line up down the hallway and head to the buses. He walks back in and sits at his desk with a sigh and Taeyong makes his presence known.
"Tell me what's wrong." Taeyong says as he goes to sit in the chair next to him.
"I don't want to talk about it." He says with a huff.
"Come on. I tell you my problems when you ask, and I promise not to give you stupid advice."Jeno chuckles. He explains everything, including what happened yesterday of course and Taeyong is just as confused as he is.
"Talk to him." He says gently. Putting his hand on Jeno's.
"I thought you said you wouldn't give me stupid advice?" Taeyong slaps his arm.
"You know that's not stupid." He says. Jeno sighs and nods.
"I will." He says softly. Taeyong leaves him after he promises not to stay too late.

When he walks in the door he sees Renjun sitting on the couch so he softly smiles.
"Hi Jen. You're so late, did you eat?" He asks with a pout. Jeno smiles and kisses his lips.
"I'm sorry I'm late, I was grading papers and cleaning. Don't worry though I ordered pizza." Renjun stands and wraps his arms around his waist.
"I love you." He says softly.
"I love you, I'm going to shower and go to bed. I'm really tired." Renjun nods.
"Ok. I'll be in soon, Jaemin is still working on something in the kitchen on his laptop. I'll tell him to come and say good night." Jeno shakes his head no.
"That's ok, let him work." Renjun frowns but nods. He knows something is going on with him because he's normally very clingy with them. He normally wouldn't want to go to bed without getting at least one kiss from both of them. He watches him walk off to shower and sighs. He picks up his tea cup and takes it into the kitchen.
"Jen's home." Renjun says as he rinses his cup.
"Oh? Good. Did he eat?" He asks getting ready to get up and get him food.
"He said he ordered pizza. He's showering and going to bed right after. I feel like something is wrong though, he seems weird." He says softly.
"What do you mean weird?" Jaemin asks.
"I don't know, just sad. I hope his depression isn't back." Renjun says before going up and kissing Jaemin.
"I'm going to bed too. Don't be up too late, and hurry and pick that photo, I'm sure Jeno is just as excited as me to see it." Renjun says walking out. Jaemin sighs and rubs his hands across his face in frustration. He's so torn he knows what he has to do but he's selfish and really doesn't want to. When he finally goes to bed he sees Jeno curled in on himself and Renjun holding him from behind.
He walks to the other side of the bed and kisses Jeno's forehead, whispering I love you before he curls in and kisses Renjun's neck and says the same to him.

By Saturday things are much the same. Jeno is quiet but smiles when he needs to. Renjun offered to make dinner for Taeyong and Yuta but when Jaemin offered to help he politely turned them down. He doesn't want to burden him any more than he needs to. He is really trying to keep up a normal appearance, especially with company coming. He is in the kitchen working hard, trying to get it done in time. He is frustrated but he told them to stay out, he's determined to do it on his own.
They both know something is wrong but he always says it's nothing. Jaemin decided to work more on his project while Renjun is just sitting on the couch worrying. When he hears a glass break and Jeno yell "fuck" he can't stay away. He runs into the kitchen to see him sitting on the floor picking up the glass with his bloody hands.
"Jeno, are you ok?" He asks frantically as he sees blood amongst the broken glass.
"I'm fine, I'm fine, everything is fine." He says before his tears start. He wipes away at them getting blood on his face in the process.
"It's only a little blood." Renjun scoffs and sits in front of him with a wet towel.
"Jaem, get the first aid kit please?" He yells out before taking glass from Jeno's hands.
"Don't cut yourself." Jeno says while Renjun just shoots him a sour look.
"Tell me what's been bothering you all week. Please Jen? Remember when you didn't tell me how you felt about something and it led to a misunderstanding and a fight and it was so awful. Please tell me?" He asks gently. Jeno looks down.
"Jaemin doesn't want me in the calendar." Renjun frowns trying to figure out where this is all coming from.
"At first i was sad because he didn't think I was good enough, he said he had someone better for it. I was so hurt that he didn't want me but then, I've just been waiting all week for him to be honest and fucking tell me but he won't even do that. It fucking hurts ok?" Renjun still doesn't quite understand.
"Go back to the beginning please?" He asks softly. Jeno sighs and watches his hands as Renjun washes them with the cloth. Jaemin walks up just as he starts his story and stops dead in his tracks.
"The day after my photo shoot, I went to the studio, I was so, I don't know? Happy, it was so special you know? I bought him some pretty flowers and went there wanting to hold him and kiss him in that small amount of time I had for a lunch break." He pauses and collects himself.
"He was talking to someone when I got there so I went to turn around and wait but they were talking about me, so of course I listened. The other guy said I want him, or something like that and he said no. Jaemin said he has someone better for it and he wasn't going to put me in it. I felt like he fucking punched me you know?" Renjun is crying now too, even he feels betrayed by this.
"I was hurt that he didn't think I was good enough but like I said the fact that he hasn't even told me makes it a hundred times worse."  Renjun wipes at his fingers trying to fight his tears but he's so fucking angry that Jaemin would hurt him this way.
"JAEMIN!" He screams out making Jeno try to shush him.
The latter peeks around the corner with tears streaming down his face. He sees Renjun seething on the floor and Jeno's poor state and sighs.
"You actually heard that?" Jaemin asks ashamed. Jeno just nods as Jaemin gets down to the floor, he crawls toward them with the first aid kit in tow and sits beside them both.
"I'm sorry." He whispers with his head down.
"Did you actually say that?" Renjun asks, still in a state of shock. Jaemin nods sadly and hands Renjun the first aid kit.
"I'm so sorry you heard that Jeno. I can't even tell you how much I regret saying it in the first place but at the same time I don't." He looks at Renjun expectantly, but he just scoffs defiantly.
"You hurt my boyfriend too and I am not leaving without an explanation." He says irritated. Then he starts mumbling angrily as Jeno chuckles through his tears.
"You hurt him and expect me to just leave? How the fuck would I just leave. I've watched him hurting all week, tried to talk to him all week, and you think im going to leave?" He huffs again while crossing his arms.
"Fair enough." Jaemin says softly.
"I was going through our photos, putting them in a special folder and I had picked a couple that I wanted for the calendar. I was awe struck at how beautiful they actually turned out, like I knew they were going to be good but Jeno, these were, wow. The only thing I could think that was missing was Renjun. That I should make a special photo shoot for him too, maybe one with both of you? I don't know, I was just thinking and daydreaming and I finally picked the picture. It was perfect. I sat there and stared at it for a while and in walked soobin, he's from the city office, he's in charge of the collab, well the business part of it anyway. I tried to get the picture off the screen but he seen it. He started ogling you and saying how hot you were and he wanted me to give him your number." He starts shaking as he looks down into his lap.
"I was jealous and angry and the more I thought about those photos, the more special they became. I looked at that one and saw the look in your eyes. The one telling me that you wanted me. It may sound stupid but I didn't want to share our special moments with anyone and the more he stood there the angrier I got that he seen you." He takes the cloth off the floor and starts wiping the dried blood off Jeno's face.
"I'm sorry I hurt you, I never ever meant to do that. I do wish you would have come to me, I would have told you a lot sooner."
Jeno lays back on the floor surprising the two. He stares at the ceiling and sighs.
"I'm sorry. My pride was hurt, I couldn't come to you and ask why you didn't want me anymore. It was embarrassing enough to think that I did that poorly, or that I looked that bad that you didn't want to use me so I couldn't ask you." Jaemin crawls over and lays on his tummy.
"I love you. I'm so sorry you were hurting. If I wasn't selfish and jealous this wouldn't have happened." He says while playing with Jeno's fingers that are splayed across his own tummy. Renjun crawls over and Kisses Jaemin's nose before going up and kissing Jeno's lips.
"Hey, what time are they coming?" Jaemin asks softly.
"Six, I was just starting early because I'm not really that good in the kitchen." Jaemin gets to his knees and crawls up to his face and kisses his lips softly.
"Time for you to get off this floor and wash up. I want you two to come to my studio for a bit. I want to show you now." Jeno sighs, still a bit embarrassed about this whole situation, he's not too sure if he wants to see it. They can both see his hesitation so they both start kissing him relentlessly until he caves.
"Ok, ok let's go." He gets up off the floor with their help and goes to wash up. Renjun starts to follow him but Jaemin pulls him back and wraps him in his arms.
"I'm sorry. I've caused you pain too because of my stupid jealousy. Thank you for putting up with me." Renjun just chuckles and kisses his nose.
"Come on, I'm dying to see those pictures." He pulls Jaemin and they go to collect Jeno.