the freak (eddie munson)

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Rose Vila Wheeler

I need something. My hormones are acting like a motherfucker.
I know in all honesty I said I didn't want feelings attached, I meant that.

But Eddie Munson is so evil. I want to drive a spear through his heart.

I know for a fact he was doing everything he possibly could have done to hold back.
The thing is though, I'm not gonna masterbate, I'm not breaking first.
He wants to play that game, fine then. So be it.
I'll win.
Because I'm not begging for him.

There's plenty of other dick in the sea.
And well... other things that doesn't require a man for pleasure.

It's already getting dark, and the sun is beginning to set.
This whole entire time I've been talking to Robin. She's been telling me about her girl problems. And to be totally honest, she's keeping me occupied.

I could probably die tonight. I don't know what's waiting down there in the upside down this time.
Obviously there has to be something new, Vecna is new. What else is there waiting down there?

I know for a fact I'm not and I never would ever in my life go down there alone.

That shit is mortifying. Even with a group of people, I can't even count the amount of times I've nearly died in this goddamn town.

Honestly we should all just move countries. I don't know why I stick around here, I mean I could've just stayed in New York.
Being a city girl is not that bad, though it's kind of scary I'm not gonna lie.

It's like we're in some type of super hero movie, why the fuck does the state of Hawkins depend on us and saving it? I just want to have one calm day in Hawkins without worrying about death and stuff.

Sometimes I still feel it. I still feel all of it.
And even I wouldn't wish something like that on my worst enemy. What happened that Fall still sticks with me.
Sometimes I try to pretend that I'm over it, but truthfully I'm not.
I'm genuinely traumatized.

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"Come on Rose you're not seriously believing this super natural crap right?" Steve questions as he follows me closely behind as I walk to my car.

"That's not what I'm saying, I just- this doesn't make sense Steve. I have to talk to him." Something doesn't feel right, I know it. This whole thing is just weird.

I mean Will Byers couldn't have just disappeared out of the blue like that.

"Talk to who? That low-life freak Jonathan?" He questions watching me like I'm crazy for even considering something like that.

"Steve stop that."

He sighs, "Well Rose I mean can't you just at least wait till it's not dark?!" He calls out as I step inside my car.

"Steve I'll call you tomorrow after I talk to Jonathan."

I don't know exactly what happened. But Will has been missing for three days now. There's a whole search party out looking for him. And surprise, no luck.
I need to know if Jonathan knows anything about when Will went missing.

It's hurting me to see Mike crying to me in my bedroom every night wishing for Will to come back to him.

Mike cares about him. He loves him.

Therefor I do too.

And I'll try everything I can to see what I can do, how I can help.

The roads are empty, it's dark and there's a slight drizzle of rain.
I love Fall, I love seeing the leaves change. I love to see the world change.
I like to imagine I can change with it.