the freak (eddie munson)

35

Rose Vila Wheeler
(1 month layer)

I grab the notebook resting on my desk.
I grab a pen and I open the pages to reveal my writing.

My stained tear drops on the pages.

I've never actually read what I wrote.
But all these letters were to him.

I did it as a way for me to cope.
But I want to read them.
I also want to write one last letter.

I flip the page to reveal the first journal entry...

(March 27, 1986)

Dear My Love,

I'm writing to you.
You could probably imagine how hard this is to do.
It's been a week since you've... yeah.

I don't normally write letters, I find it pretty stupid. That's something I used to think.

But I guess I think writing a letter to you would bring me some type of closure.

I'm falling apart with you.

I don't know how to live. How to think. How to sleep.

I don't what to do.

I'm lost.

I can't stop thinking of you  and that night.
It's almost like one of those nightmares that won't stop bugging you.

One of those nightmares that makes you scared to sleep at night in fear that you'll dream it all over again.

That's how I feel.

Every time I close my eyes, I think of you.
I think of that night and what I couldn't done to save you.

I should've stopped you the moment you jumped down from that rope.

But I didn't.

Instead i stood there watching you as you killed yourself for me.
It was so selfish of me.
I hate myself for not jumping down sooner.

I could've stopped you.
I could've saved you.

And when I tried to, it was too late.

I hope you can forgive me.

Love, Rose

I stare at the page for a moment while longer before flipping to the next.

(April 2, 1986)

Dear My Love,

It's been 14 days without you.

I've been getting a little better. Surprise, surprise...
I didn't talk to you about this in my last letter mainly because I was to caught it up in feeling sad.

But remember that cool chief  that used to work for the Hawkins PD?
Yeah well turns out he's still alive!

I mean I was so shocked and surprised when I saw him.
He made things a bit better for me.