I push people away
I don't know why
I always have
I'm lost
In the world
And can't find myself
My parents don't love
Each other
I'm not sure I'll
Ever find true love myself
Sometimes I feel great
Sometimes I feel like shit
I'm losing myself
In my depression and anger
I'm lonely
And I don't know
Why I'm here
Empty inside
I've tried so
Many different roles
And interest
And they just don't stick
I'm in my twenties
I'm still not in college
Still living at home
With no plan
For the future
Doctor, lawyer
It doesn't matter
What I think of
Because some days
I just give up
On myself
I have no faith
In myself
I don't trust
Who I am
Or my ability
To my make decisions
I'm failure to
Everyone
I'm losing myself
In my depression and anger
I'm lonely
And I don't know
Why I'm here
Empty inside
I go to a doctor
And all they do
Is put me on pills
Nobody wants to
Talk about the childhood
Trauma
Yes I've tried therapy
And it has helped me
To feel like
Ending my life
Isn't worth it
And while that's true
Nobody's ever told
Me how to
Have a fulfilling life
Not suicidal seems
To not be enough
For some people
It keeps my family happy
But really it's the
Bare minimum
Nobody takes me seriously
I'm losing myself
In my depression and anger
I'm lonely
And I don't know
Why I'm here
Empty inside
I try making friends
But they just use me
Or leave me
I can't tell my
Family anything
Because they don't
Accept me the
Way I am
I like girls
What's it to you
I just want
The Freedom
To be me
But I can't
Get that at home
My family
Thinks I'm stupid
And incapable, like a child
I'm losing myself
In my depression and anger
I'm lonely
And I don't know
Why I'm here
Empty inside
I just realized
That I am truly alone
Yes, there's God
And therapy
But I want a real
Human connection
Broken family
Rough childhood
That's why I act
The way I do
But they don't
Believe me
Hospital after hospital
Tears after tears
I've had relationships
After relationships
And I still can't find
Anyone I connect with
I'm losing myself
In my depression and anger
I'm lonely
And I don't know
Why I'm here
Empty inside
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A Journey Through My Soul
PoesiaThis is a collection of short poems I wrote. Please be aware that some contain sexual content, and as well as descriptions of depression that might trigger some people .
