I remember being
A child
And watching
SpongeBob
Without a care in the
World
Yes in a way my childhood
Was rough
But in a way it was
Much simpler
My dad used to call
Me a smart little girl
Now our relationship
Is broken
Whatever ever happened
To who I used to be
I used to wish
That I was grown
Little did I know
I would find out
That adulthood
Is not everything
It's cracked up to be
I would give
Anything for the person
I love
But I can't keep a relationship
For anything
My dad thinks I'm stupid
And incapable
Because I don't know
How to cook
He thinks I spend
Too much money
My mom is gone
And in a way it is
A blessing but
I also realize
Now that I never
Had a mother figure
In my life
Whatever happened
To who I used to be
I used to wish
That I was grown
Little did I know
I would find out
That adulthood
Is not everything
It's cracked up to be
The sun is black
I feel like a failure
I still don't know
What I want to do
With my life
Should I just cut
Myself now
The doctors
Say it's because
I'm crazy
But I just say
Something wrong
With me
And I can't figure
Out what it is
I'm disabled
And no one thinks
I'm capable of
Anything great
I write these poems
But that doesn't mean
Anything
Life has been
Nothing but disappointment
For me
And nobody understood
My turmoil
Is not up for
Debate
Whatever happened
To who I used to be
I used to wish
That I was grown
Little did I know
I would find out
That adulthood
Is not everything
It's cracked up to be
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A Journey Through My Soul
PoetryThis is a collection of short poems I wrote. Please be aware that some contain sexual content, and as well as descriptions of depression that might trigger some people .
