feeling his presence, every second ♡︎

-10-

I woke up this morning with thoughts of last night. From the beggining to the end. I went to the bathroom and did skincare,brushed my teeth, took a shower, hair and makeup, etc. I went to the kitchen and I turned on my coffee maker when I hear faint noises from the living room. I walked in to see what it was when I saw pictures of Ben and I kissing last night on the TV.

Shit. SHIT. "BEN?" I was freaking out. No answer. I grabbed my phone when it started to ring. It was Lynda. "Are you watching it?" Mhm was all I said. I was pretty speechless not gonna lie. I really really hoped that too much publicity would ruin our relationship.

I didn't care about our relationship being known around the world nor did I care about being taken a picture of. I only care about the talking and the things that could be said to others. We have kids. Anything could negatively affect them and we collectively don't want that.

Page Six: Ben Affleck and Jennifer Lopez rekindle their romance after almost 2 decades.

Noticias Telemundo: Ben y Jennifer: El amor de JLO y Ben continua!!

Ben came through the door with a bag in his hand and was smiling until he saw the TV. "Lynda, Let me call you back." I walked up to Ben who was staring at the TV. I was really hoping and praying this wouldn't be like 2002. This was exactly how it started.

He came and hugged me. For some reason I wanted to take back what I said about us and publicity. Weirdly enough, I wanted to take back yesterday's kiss. I felt guilty for thinking about it but I did. "I'm sorry for kissing you yesterday." I said while still in his arms. "Please don't ever apologize for something like that. I've fallen in love with you even more now because of yesterday and as each day passes, my love for you grows everyday. I'm not gonna leave you, Jen."

I sure hope not. "Anyways, I went to get you these. I know it's been a decade but I hope you still love them as much as I do. I took the box out of the bag and looked at the chocalate chip cookies that were sold at a family owned pharmacy, which by the way I still loved those cookies. Ben and I used to go every week and get some. We were really close to the original owners and they loved us.

"You remembered!!" I pulled his face in and kissed the side of his face repeatedly, It was sort of our thing. "I was gonna go to the gym buttt-"

"I think you and I should go, have lunch with the twins, shopping for them, and then you, Jennifer Lopez should lay in bed with me and do nothing for a change. I bit my lip as I normally do when I'm in a particular mood. "Wow that sounds great."

"And then we can take a hot bath with those rose petals that you like." Okay this man does things to me FOR SURE. I pulled him on top of me onto the couch and just made out with him. Thankfully we didn't do anything else considering Emme and Max were probably going to wake up any minute now.

From the couch we went up to my room and I made him pick out my outfit for lunch. He picked a black skin tight dress, the top of the dress was a bralette and the bottom was rutched. He paired the dress with my Christian Dior sandals and my Dior tote bag. Overall, Ben knew what he was doing. "Baby, what should I do for my hair?"

"That one messy bun you do!!" Max said randomly. I didn't even know he had come in the room. "OOO yes!! Max is right, Babe! Also go easy on the makeup, you don't need any of that to be beautiful " I nodded and Max came over to me. He hugged and kissed me 'Good Morning'. "Hi, papi. How'd you sleep?" I kissed him repeatedly like I always did when he was a baby. "Good ,mom and you?" I caught a gilmpse of Ben watching us with love in his eyes.

"Gooddd. Is your sister awake?" He said yes and walked away. That boy lives in his own world. "Get dressed Max, We're taking you guys out." He put a thumbs as he walked out. I laughed at Ben's attempt to blend well with the kids. It was actually really cute. He came in the bathroom and sat on the side of the tub and watched me do my makeup. He saw me grab the foundation and gave me a death stare. "No, you're not doing that." He grabbed the mascara and lipgloss and handed it to me.

"What the hell am I gonna do this with?" I laughed. You don't need that. I prefer without it." I applied both per request. "You also prefer to see me wearing nothing but here we are."

"That's true too but as much as I would love for that to happen, you can't right now." I always laughed at his weird ass jokes but that doesn't ever suprise me. I love him for it. Once I was done, I turned my chair towards him and showed him the final product. "Whatcha think?"

"Wowww, girlfriend you did great." He smiled. "Thank you, boyfriend." With that Emme walked in and she looked extremely pissed. "Good morning, mother. Can you believe what Max just said?" I laughed because I knew this would be a funny argument by the looks of it. "Hello, my child. What did my other child say?"

"He said I can't bench press him and I told him, yes I can and he swore I didn't so when I did do it he said that It's because I had not eaten today!! Can you believe the nerve that boy has?" Ben joined in and laughed with Emme and I too. "See it could go many ways because your mom already ate but it's easy to bench press her." With that, he swept me off my feet just to prove it to Emme and he didn't fail to execute. He held my ass and my back as he did it too so imagine that. I laughed the entire time for some reason. Like I always say, I'm high on life.

When we were done and everyone had gotten ready we went out to lunch at 208 Rodeo in Beverly Hills. The kids had club sandwiches while Ben and I had steak and mashed potatoes. I don't care what time it is, there will ALWAYS be room for steak. After that we went shopping at Hollywood and Highland Mall which was full of paparazzi. We didn't let that get to us though. We got everything that Emme and Max wanted for the summer. Ben even styled Emme. Anything he saw that was her style he grabbed. He accepted her for who she was and I was eternally grateful for that.

I mouthed him a 'Thank you' which he smiled and nodded in response to. After that whole day we went back home and we did as he promised me. WE decided to take a bath first so we locked ourselves in the bathroom and we got in the tub. We poured salts, lavendar and roses just to add in a touch. We talked and had dumb conversations that I wouldn't trade for the world.

Then after, we laid in bed and watch Game of Thrones because I loved it and I knew he would too. Tommorow, his kids were coming here to stay for the rest of the week. I couldn't wait. I fell asleep in his arms. My favorite place to be.

I know days like this would be happening more often because this is something I wanted for the rest of my life but overall, today was pretty irreplaceable.