feeling his presence, every second ♡︎

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It's September 10th now and we were going to walk the red carpet today at the Venice Film Festival. At this point, I can't wait to marry Ben. He was sleep next to me and I just watched him sleep. Yes, I know it's a stalker thing to do but he looked so peaceful.

Last night was like a fairytale. He made sure everyone on the streets of Venice knew I was his then I did my best to make him proud. I was getting up to take a shower when I felt Ben's firm arms surrond my torso and pulled me back. I laughed when he did that because it was so unexpected. I didnt even know he was awake. As always, he never failed to make me weak to my knees.

I turned around so I could face him. Normally, kissing or doing anything with morning breath is completely against my life rules but I don't think Ben cared since he did start it. "Good morning, girlfriend." I stuck my face in his bare chest so that I could be closer to him. If that was even possible. "Hi, boyfriend."

"Where were you going?"

"To shower, which I should be doing that by now." I quickly got up and ran away before he could pull me back. I immediately went and brushed my teeth. The whole morning breath thing is NOT my thing and I'll never be doing it again. "You hated it too?" He said leaving me suprised as he was also brushing his teeth. "Mhm." We both laughed at that moment. I learn something new about Ben everyday. "So are you as excited for the festival as I am?" I could tell this passion project meant alot to him and the least I could do was be here with him to share his happiness.

"Of course , baby! This is such a big thing and I'm so proud of you for following this passion of yours. I'm also hoping you'll love my dress." The moment I saw that dress; I knew it was perfect for this premire. "You know I'll probably love it just because you're wearing it." I think it was safe to say I was obsessed with the dress myself. "Okay, but I want you to be honest about it, Not that I would change it but I want you to be honest with me always." I chuckled at my broken humor in between the sentence. Not that it was something you could call "humor" because it wasn't even meant to be funny. I just laugh at literally anything.

"Okay I am and I will be." We both smiled to each other and he went near the shower and stripped himself of his clothes. He was looking at me with a smile on his face which made me follow him into the shower. Today was going to be great, I could feel it.

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The time of the festival came extremely quick. We started getting ready at 3, when I say "We" I mean me. Ben got ready an hour and a half prior to the event. Chris and the rest of my team did my hair and makeup and they killed it as always. Ben would occasionally come in and he would talk with Chris about my natural beauty. By the way, Chris agreed with everything he said and I just laughed at the both of them.

"In Ben's defense, We've all seen you without makeup and I think you look even better without it." Ben gave me an "I told you so" look. "As much as I appreciate the love, a little makeup never hurts. I'm going to put on my dress. Chris take Ben to the foyer please! I want him to see my dress there. We are officially late."

"That's never new." Good thing my boyfriend knew the truth. "Go!" I smacked his ass on the way out like he always did to me. "Payback." Yes, we were 'that' couple, What about it? He went downstairs without even protesting.

Mariel zipped and buttoned my dress together, I put on my heels, and Mary touched up on glitter and a few makeup things. As soon as I was ready, I stopped at the top of the stairs and I heard Tom yell to Ben. "Ready?" Ben gave him and thumbs up and I came down.

He looked so enamoured, even I could tell. He pulled me by the waist and I could feel the desire through his touch. I felt so deeply loved in the moment. The way he pulled me captivated me in inexplicable ways.

We got into the car as my team clapped for us and we thanked them.

When we arrived at the festival, Ben got out of the car first. Posed for ONE picture then opened the door for me. That's really different considering 'you know who' would sign autographs and all those things that didn't concern him. He moved out of the way and let the paparazzi take pictures of me alone. It was crazy to me how even though we were attending the event for him, he still managed to always give me the spotlight. He was so selfless and that's one of the qualities I love about him.

What I also noticed was that Ben didn't pick up his phone at all during the night. He paid attention to me the entire time, he even acted as if cellphones didn't exist at all that evening. That was also an improvement from my past. Ben made me believe he had no flaws.

I was tired of taking pictures without Ben after 30 seconds so I walked joyfully towards my love. "Hi ,sexy lady." He was smiling as if that didn't just make me wanna leave here and marry him now.

There wasn't a dull moment that night. He kept whispering cute jokes in my ear which made me laugh alot. I think he thought I didn't notice how many times he grabbed my ass... Not that I minded though. The festival went great, I was with Ben all night so that made it better.

We got into a limo with Matt and his wife that would drop each couple off at their hotel. Everyone was exhausted, including me. Ben and I don't sleep. We're always up doing something even simple things like watching Ted Lasso.

At this time, I walked up the stairs in the hotel holding Ben with one of my hands and my shoes in the other. I went straight to the bathroom to remove my dress when I overheard Ben talking to someone in the room. "What do you mean, you can't get it to me until April? I ordered it in July and you know that." What could he be talking about? And who could he be talking to at this time of the night?

"Okay fine I guess I'll wait until April to do it. Thanks anyway." I was super intrigued, what could this be?

I'm sure the both of us went to sleep both thinking about April. I couldn't wait until it came.

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It took forever but April finally came, and what was ordered is something I'll never forget.