feeling his presence, every second ♡︎

-14-

That night was probably the absolute best night of my life. Seeing the love of my life at the end of the aisle after all that had happened to our relationship over the past 20 years was surreal.

The priest began by making us join our hands. Ben had the softest hands ever, surprisingly but it was one of the things I loved about him. I looked at my husband with all the love that I could possibly give him.

"Would you both please say your vows?"

I started off our vows and I was already crying but when he said his vows; I couldn't contain my feelings.

"Ben, when I was 33 years old you made me the happiest woman on earth and now you continue to do that at 52. I always stood by the fact that you were the one that got away and every morning I wake up beside you, you continue to prove me right. I am eternally grateful that you treat my kids like your own. At this point in time, I am sure that everything else was meant to happen so that I could find my way back to you. I love you, Ben."

I was crying and he wiped my tears away and vice versa. Then something clicked and I knew exactly what I would do for Cy and Max at the wedding with the rest of our family. All else felt right.

"Jenn, I was always told that the right person and wrong time didn't exist but they were wrong. You've given me happiness in my times of darkness. You've been one of the lights of my life and I've always known you'll continue to do so. You're my best friend and I love us more than anything. Eres la mujer de mis sueños, Jennifer, Te amo."

He's always been emotional, but I noticed he cried extra hard while expressing all those beautiful things. With Ben, I've learned that love takes time and if it's true, It will come around.

I had no doubt we'd find out way back to one another but that first email made it all right. The world suddenly shifted for me. Something about Ben always brought my mind back to him.

I could never tell for sure what that factor was. His lips? His eyes? His personality? His voice? Or was it all of it? I wasn't sure like I said, but I was determined to spend the rest of my life trying to figure it out.

"I now pronounce you; man and wife. Ben, you can now kiss your bride." Like all the other moments I've had with Ben, I felt the happiest I've ever been. I was in love with my future with him and that was something that I would never give up.

The pain we shared when we both lost each other was enough motivation to value this moment because tonight, I married the love of my life and my 3 new kids whom I love because I feel like they're my own. I looked at my husband as we walked out of The Little White Chapel to the pink Elvis car replica parked outside. After all, it is Vegas.

My husband - Wow, I really can't stop calling him my husband, just like I can't stop looking at him. Anyways, my husband, our kids, and I took pictures together, individually and in pairs.

When we got back to the hotel it was 2 am. We were all extremely hungry so we changed out of our wedding outfits into our sweatpants and t-shirts and we went to a diner. We felt like an average family and it was alleviating.

There were no paparazzi considering it was the middle of the night so we were free to be our true selves.

Waking up next to Ben the next morning was surreal like every other moment we've shared in the last year. This was the start of the rest of my life and I would never get over that. I'm living the dream.