Who we need to be to survive. (Emily Gilbert pt. 2)

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I almost roll off my couch which wakes me up and I sit up and wait for my vision to clear. My ice cream is melted in the tub on the table and Netflix is asking if I'm still watching and I roll my eyes at that and then take up my phone to see if Eileen saw my message. She did but all she sent back was a picture of a book and literally no context so I check my messages from Damon which reads. "Just a warning Stefan is pissed."

"Why?" I write back. "basically I kidnapped Elena to bring her to New York have a good day." He says with a smiley face and I just don't answer because what do I even say to that. But am I surprised? Nope. I don't really have a plan for today. I thought Eileen would have responded with something understandable and then my plan would take off from there but I guess not so I get up, get a bloodbag and go upstairs.

Okay so last night I was thinking about not putting everyone before myself and it sounded easy enough but now I'm bored and don't know what to do with myself and that made me think about how long I didn't have a drink but for some reason the only thing I don't have in my house is alcohol although this might be considered an unhealthy way of coping but it's not. I can't even get drunk and I've been dead so it's fine.

Anyways after I bathe And wash my hair I put on jeans and a Jersey and leave my hair down and decide to go to the boarding house. Yep I'm not talking to Stefan right now but I do plan on taking his alcohol so I get in my car and drive.

I get to the boarding house and walk inside. Wow and I thought this morning could not get any worse. Klaus is there. What the hell do I do now? Should I just leave? This is weird as fuck. At least Caroline is here. did Klaus know I died?

"Emmy how nice of you to join us." Of course Klaus is the first to say something. Why is he not surprised to see me? "Don't mind me just here for supplies." I flash a fake smile and start walking off. "You should join us." Klaus suggests and I'm about to decline when Caroline agrees. "I very much hate to agree with Klaus....but you should stay this is important." Caroline says. Okay look I have nothing better to do and maybe it is important. "Fine." I agree and walk over to Damon's bourbon stash and take the bottle. I don't even like bourbon but this is alot so I open it and take a sip and then sit down.

"Okay so there's a crazy guy slightly responsible for Jeremy's death. We have no idea what he looks like. Who's been sacrificing people and wants to open whatever door to the other side so that everyone we killed who hates us can have the chance to come back and kill us and he only has one more sacrifice to do so." I summarize when they finish talking. "A plus for listening comprehension." Caroline says. "So how exactly is this being solved?"

"Well if Shane was working with Silas then we see what he knows." Stefan suggests. "Good idea but incase you forgot Shane's not exactly around." Caroline tells him. "Wasn't he a professor therefore I'm pretty sure he had an office with info and probably a bunch of secret stuff." I suggest.

"Emmy's got a point." Stefan agrees. "We could go tonight." He says and I'm about to agree but then I think about what if Eileen decides to get here tonight or what if I accidentally set Shane's office on fire and ruin everyone's chances. "Actually you guys are gona have to do that...I'm busy."

"With something more important that this?" Caroline asks in a slightly scornful way and I glare at her. "Yes actually." And that is that so I rest the bottle on the ground, get up and go down to the basement to take bloodbags and when I'm picking up probably my fifth one Stefan comes down. "Hey are you okay?" He asks. Oh my god this boy is trying to piss me off. "Not great but that doesn't really concern you does it."

He opens his mouth to say something but I cut him off. "If this is all just to see if I knew about Damon taking Elena....yes I did." I tell him. He shakes his head. "It's not about that."