Mahone's just a friend

Rehab

I was crying so hard the tears running down my face as I ran so fast back to my house the key wasn't working and I was getting so pissed banging and slamming the door before it finally opened Dylan was sitting on the bed with boxes still from our move piled around

"What happened ash your scaring me"

"What happened were done over with" I cried out

"Your leaving him because he self harms that's a little harsh ashley"

"YOU FUCKING KNEW OMG"

"No I only knew for a day Zach told me on the plane I found out actually he blurted it out I couldn't tell you i didn't want this to happen"

"I left Dylan it's done were broken up again" I screamed

"Ashley omg you left him like that do you know anything about self harm you just made it a million times worse"

"No Dylan im helping him don't you get it im helping him by not being their to cause anymore problems"

"don't you get that you being their is helping him it's helping him not do it because he knows your their for him"

Then it hit me she was right he could hurt himself more he just explained to me it was when I was gone and doing something else

"He wasn't even mad when I left"

"Becauses he's not gonna cry and beg for you to stay when your leaving him at is darkest time he's thought about more then just cutting himself"

My heart stopped when I heard the word more I know he was depressed but I didn't think he would go as far as killin himself my anxiety rising as I thought about him on the bathroom floor dead

"He's tried to" I struggled to say

"Rob said he talked about wanting to go when he found him blood everywhere on the floor he said he's never seen something so bad ever"

"Fuck no" I cried "im so stupid Dylan why"

"Ash its gonna be ok just go you have time"

Grabbing my key off the hook I grabbed my jacket and began running my body ached so much I don't think I've ever run so fast in my life I don't think I would ever again I stopped slowing down my breathing a perr of me wishes that when I see him he'll just fall in my arms and we he'll cry but I also want him to agree with me

I'll be just his fiend if that's gonna help him I want to make him better

It wasn't until I hopped the fence to his gated community I saw ambulances coming up the other end my eyes started watering at I ran again so fast to the house I got their dropping to my knees when I saw Rob and alex dragging him out towards the ambulance foaming of the mouth is when I knew o destroyed everything I knew it was my fault i did this to him

I ran towards them handing him off but I ran into Rob like a brick wall he stopped me dead in my tracks

"AUSTIN AUSTIN" I screamed tears running down my face endlessly Rob got me in a big bear hug squeezing me so close I tried to get out of it but he was too strong for me he didn't want me to see him

"ROB STOP LET ME GO" I cried pushing on his chest

"No you don't need to see ash" he whispers

"Is he ok Rob stop is he gonna live hey hey" I yelled to th I paramedic "is he alive"

"He's stable" I heard my heartbeat calming down a bit but I still wanted to see him I wanted to hug him and kiss his face telling him how sorry I am i was going crazy but he just held me tighter he eventually fell to the ground hugging me so his weight was on top of me straddling my waist just like austin did his necklace dangling in my face tears dropping from his eyes to my cheeks was when I calmed down and was hurt I sat so I was on his lap hugging him with the same force he was hugging me with