Soulful | Book 2 of 2| Starks daughter x Natasha Romanoff

Chapter 26

We were all back. "Did we get them all?" Bruce asked.

"You telling me this'll actually work?" Rhodes said. I looked around and didn't see Nat,

"Clint," I said, my heart pounding, "Where's Nat?" He looked upset like he had been crying, my mind was racing, he didn't answer, and my breathing got heavy. He still didn't speak, tears spilled out of my eyes.

"Clint, say something please," I cried. He shook his head.

"She said that she loves you Aj." I didn't know what to do, I felt numb, I didn't want to believe him. I couldn't breathe, the world was spinning. Tears trickled down my face. I wanted to scream and punch someone but instead, I put my hand over my mouth and ran to my room, I didn't want to break down in front of everyone. When I got to my room I fell to the floor and started sobbing. I couldn't do anything else, she was gone, Natasha was gone, my Natasha was gone. I heard footsteps, then my door opened and I felt an arm around me. It was Tony. Seeing him made me cry more.

"Dad," I cried into his shoulder.

"I know A, I know," he rubbed my back.

"I don't even know what to say," I said.

"That's ok you don't have to say anything." I cried in his arms for a while,

"She, she means so much to me dad, and now I don't have my, my everything," I touched the necklace Nat gave me yesterday. "I just don't know how to go on without her," I sobbed.

"I'll help you with that A," he said. I got off of Tony.

"Dad, I just saw her too in fucking 2012 and I couldn't wait to see her again, the last fucking time I saw her was 2012 20 fucking 12," I cried some more, then decided that I wanted to change the subject because I hated being vulnerable in front of people except Nat, Pepper and sometimes Tony, but this was not one of those times.

"How was your mission," I said.

"Good," he said, "I saw Howard," he said catching my hint,

"Stark?" I asked. He nodded, "In 2012 in New York?" Tony shook his head,

"No, in New Jersey in 1970," Tony said.

"Oh, do you know how it happened?" I asked going back to Nat.

"Natasha?" He asked. I nodded,

"Aj, the soul stone is special, the same thing happened with Nebula's sister, Gamora, it's a soul for a soul, and Clint said Natasha wanted to jump, she decided to do it. I paused to think about that for a second.

"Wait so you knew it was a soul for a soul?" I asked.

"Yes," Tony said.

"You knew it and you let her go?" I yelled, "You let her go and die, I can't believe you dad. And she wanted to jump? It was that fucking red," I yelled as I started to cry heavier, "she had to whip that fucking red," I remembered Nat's words from a long time ago, "She's a hero, I married a hero." I said, "You can go down now Tony, I'll be out after you."

"You sure?" Tony asked.

"Yeah, I'm going down too." Tony walked out. I gripped the necklace and walked into my closet I threw on one of Nat's sweatshirts. Then I walked down.

"How's Aj?" I heard Cap ask Tony.

"Ok," I said. I walked to the couch and sat next to Thor. Everyone else looked like they had been crying. Thor put his arm around me.

"Are you doing ok?" he asked.

"No," I shook my head, "I, she's my wife, and I love her with everything I have, and you know I don't have her anymore." Tears trickled down my face and I started to break down again. I knew everyone was looking at me but this time I couldn't give less of a fuck. Thor pulled me into a hug and I cried into his shoulder, his arms made me feel secure.