40 year old, Beyoncè Knowles-Raymond has always tried to be the perfect Pastor's wife. Her husband, Pastor Usher Raymond, constantly puts "the work of the Lord", as is first priority. But what about the needs of his wife?
26 year old Normani Hamilto...
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*Author's Note: Sorry but this chapter won't be very long. My work day was very busy. But I didn't want to leave y'all with no update at all! So here's something.
Beyoncè's P.O.V.
Love making....it's supposed to be a beautiful thing. And with Usher and I, it used to be really good. But it got to a point where when we actually did make love, it was more like out of obligation than love. He would definitely reach his climax because, well...not to toot my own horn, but there's some goodness between these thick caramel thighs of mine!
The issue was that I wasn't quite sexually satisfied. For some reason, I wasn't experiencing orgasms anymore. I thought maybe it was because I was over thirty five. But then I thought about the fact that even when I was under thirty five, it wouldn't happen sometimes. Nicki says it's Usher's fault because he doesn't "eat me out". Usher isn't a fan of oral sex. Which I didn't fuss too much about because I didn't really want to suck dick anyway!
"You don't know what you're missing out on", my closet friend from church, Kierra once told me.
Actually quite a few of my female friends have told me that being pleasured orally is far greater than intercourse. But if my husband wasn't comfortable with it, I wasn't going to pressure him to do it.
The night after I came from Nicki and Lauren's wedding anniversary party, Usher was in the mood. So we made love for a little bit. I made him cum rather quickly and then he was out like a light! I sighed and turned on the TV afterwards. I have to admit that I was frustrated...sexually! I wanted a little more passion and intensity. I wanted us to try other positions besides missionary. Basically what I'm trying to say is, sex with my husband was becoming painfully boring!
It had gotten to the point where I began wondering what it would be like to be with someone else. And that made me feel like I was the worst wife ever! How could I even consider having sex with another person? Usher was never perfect, but he was always good to me. He never allowed anyone to disrespect me. He cherished me. I highly doubted if he was cheating on me, so how could I even think about cheating on him? Or much worse...leaving him...
I had to shake all those thoughts off! No way could I do any of that to Usher. It was never my intention to hurt my husband. But there was something missing in our marriage. I needed more intimacy. I needed to be made love to in a more intense way. I desired for him to take his time with me and not rush to reach his peak. My body was yearning to be touched and kissed in places that I knew would help me have the orgasmic release I needed. But I didn't want to mention those things to my husband because I knew he would get offended. The male ego is fragile!
I was finally able to fall asleep. When I woke up, I went to the bathroom. Once I came back into my bedroom, I gasped and began to panic. I didn't see my husband in bed. Instead, it was a woman. A naked woman at that! And that woman was Normani!
