From Beginning to the End (Jeongcheol)

Truth

Seungcheol pov

It has been a week since that incident and I have not spoken to Jeonghan at all since then. I noticed how he seemed paler than normal and ate less than usual, often complaining to Joshua about having no appetite.

My angel...

Today, the members were all out of the house. Joshua brought DK to a restaurant, Mingyu and Wonwoo went to visit a game arcade, Jun and Minghao were in China for a programme, Hoshi and Woozi were at the company producing, Vernon and Seungkwan playing basketball and Dino was in school. Where was Jeonghan? I didn't know. I was worried about not knowing his whereabouts but I knew he would tell our manager or Joshua. Yeah he tells anyone else but me.

I walked out of my room, wanting to find something to cook for lunch. I passed by Mingyu and Wonwoo's room when I heard sniffling from inside. Did they leave their movie playing? The electricity bills!!

I walked in and noticed their computers and laptop all switched off. Huh? Then where was the sound coming from?

I turned to walk out of the room when I noticed a small figure in the corner, face burried between his/her knees.

I walked closer and realised who it was. Jeonghan.

'Jeonghan-ah... wae? Gwenchana?'

Upon hear my voice, Jeonghan looked up and bolted out of the room. I chased after him but it wasn't hard since once he stepped out of the room, he collapsed.

'JEONGHAN!'

I rushed to pick up his body before gently carrying him to his room and placing him on his bed.

I wrapped him in his blanket and removed his hair that was stuck to his beautiful face. Tears stained his face and his lips were still quivering even though he was out cold.

I walked to the kitchen and prepared some porridge and kimbap for lunch.

~30 mins later~

'Jeonghan? Jeonghan-ah? Jeonghannie? Ireona' I whispered while patting his arm.

Seeing Jeonghan flicker his eyes open, I smiled and patted his head.

'You are awake. Let me bring you some food'

I ran to the kitchen and brought up the tray of food I prepared, careful not to spill anything.

'Eat. I cooked us some lunch'

Jeonghan nodded and proceeded to take a bite carefully.

'Is the food n- why are you crying?'
I turned to look at Jeonghan who was wiping his tears silently, his shoulder shuddering.

3rd person pov

'Cheol... I'm sorry. I'm sorry about that night. I didn't mean to have sex with you. I... I didn't know what came over me'
'Jeonghan...' I tried to stop him from going further, knowing that this topic was difficult for us. For him. But he held up his hand, signalling for me to let him continue.

'I was cleaning you up so I had to remove your clothes to wipe you down but then I lost control and started sucking you. You woke up and I stopped but you told me to finish what I started and you know... I'm sorry. I really didn't mean for things to turn out like that. Please don't be mad at me anymore. It hurts me to see you ignore me but be so happy with others. I don't know why but I like you Seungcheol. I really do. I-'

'You... like me? As a friend or...something more?'

Jeonghan looked up, realising what his sudden confession to Seungcheol. Not knowing what to do, Jeonghan continued rambling on.

'Ithinkso. MaybeIdolikeyoumorethanjustfrie-'

Before Jeonghan could continue, Seungcheol connected their lips. Jeonghan was shocked but soon started kissing back. Their lips moved in sinc, while Jeonghan wrapped his arms around Seungcheol's neck and Seungcheol grabbed Joenghan's waist with one hand and held his cheek with the other.

After kissing, they separated their lips and connected their foreheads, staring into each other's eyes.

'Jeonghan, I'm sorry for all the pain I caused you since that day. I had no recollection of that night and ended up putting the blame on you. It also hurt me to ignore you but I didn't know how else to approach you. I blamed you, I hurt you and I am very sorry. Please... give me a chance to make it up to you... I loved you from the very beginning but I never knew how to deal with it. I never had anyone to share my feelings with since I am the oldest. You have Joshua and I have no one. I knew I screwed up the moment I remembered I penetrated you. It was my fault yet I punished you by ignoring you. Jeonghan, please give me a chance, just one, to make it up to you' Seungcheol apologised, tears forming is his eyes. He was holding onto Jeonghan's hands and rubbing his thumb over them.

Jeonghan stared at Seungcheol. Seeing the sincerity in his eyes, Jeonghan nodded, before pressing a kiss on Seungcheol's lips.

'Should we tell the members?'
'Up to you babe. Anything that is comfortable for you'. Jeonghan flushed at the new nickname. There was so much cheesiness from their leader that he needed to get use to.