From Beginning to the End (Jeongcheol)

New beginning or maybe not

3rd person pov

It has been a few days since the big apology and both of them have not let their members known.

'Baby, wake up. It's our off day! Let's do something fun!'
'Noo~ I wanna sleep somemore~'

Jeonghan was whining under the blanket, not wanting to feel the cold and wanting to sleep longer.

'😔 ok'
Seungcheol sighed. He climbed back into bed, stretched out his arm under Jeonghan's head, allowing Jeonghan to curl up against Seungcheol.

Seungcheol stared at Jeonghan sleeping peacefully. He wanted to claim Jeonghan as his by asking him to be his boyfriend today but Jeonghan's beauty sleep seems to be ruining the plan.

Jeonghan snuggled closer to Seungcheol, breathing out lightly with his hands laying on Seungcheol's chest.

Jeonghan pov

I wasn't really asleep. I just wanted to cuddle with Seungcheol. He was always afraid that the members would walk into the room since we never announced we were together. Technically, we weren't dating. He hasn't asked me to be his boyfriend. We went out together and kissed but whenever we were back home, he would just act like friends. He never showed any affection at home except when we are alone. I didn't feel like having him pretend he wasn't close to me today so I pretended to be sleepy so he would get in bed with me.

Was Seungcheol really embarrassed of me? Was I not good enough for him? Why doesn't he want me to be his boyfriend? I love him. I really do. I am no longer mad from that time. I forgave him the moment he took care of me. Does he not love me anymore?

Seungcheol pov

I inflicted so much pain on Jeonghan. I know I don't deserve to call him mine but I do. I really wish to call him mine. I wanted to ask him to be my boyfriend yesterday, the day before yesterday , the day before that... you get it. But I am just afraid he will reject me.

Whenever we get home, I always keep a distance from him cause I'm afraid the members ask about us. I am very clingy and I know my actions will be very obvious. Jeonghan didn't want to tell the members and I respect that since we could not predict how they would react.

At night, Jeonghan would always ask to sleep with me. I always wanted say yes. To hug him in my sleep, smell his scent in bed, kiss him in his sleep and let him feel security in my arms. But I knew myself. I knew I had little control when it came to Jeonghan. I would be unable to hold back myself from having sex with him. He is so attractive and just looking at him can turn me on. I didn't want to force Jeonghan into having sex with me just because of my outrageous hormones. I want us to have sex cause we feel the love. Not just to satisfy my needs.