From Beginning to the End (Jeongcheol)

Jeonghan perspective

Jeonghan pov

After riding Seungcheol, he immediately left without a word. He knew my biggest fear (chapter After Care) but he still did it. I know it's stupid but after a trauma I had when I was younger, before I met Seventeen, I developed that as one of my biggest fears.

As I saw Seungcheol walking back to his seat, in which he had to walk down the aisle to cross to the other side before walking up the aisle back to his seat, he has stopped to help an air stewardess pick up her fallen item.

I saw how Seungcheol had bent down so fast just to pick up her item. The way she smiled and the way she took the item from Seungcheol's hand, literally touching his hand. Seungcheol continued carrying a conversation with her and she kept laughing and tugging her hair back behind her ear. Seungcheol was clearly flirting with her! How could I not get mad?

Seungcheol finally returned to his seat and stretched him hand out to my side. I was beyond mad that he flirted so easily with others just after I basically had plane sex with him.

All the way from the airport to the hotel, I ignored him, besides occasionally saying Yes and No when he asked important questions.

To be honest, I hated ignoring him. It hurts me and I know it hurts him too. But seeing him making others smile and flirt really hurt me. When I saw Seungcheol sleeping on the way to the hotel, I would often steal small glaces at him.

At night, when Seungcheol mentioned our promises, I felt guilty. He didn't mean to flirt. He was just being helpful I guess? He was being so sweet to me by keeping his temper in check but here I was ignoring him. I wanted to apologise, to have him hold me in his arms again but I was being stupidly prideful and chose to remain mad at him instead of apologising.

~ 2am ~

I kept tossing and turning in bed. I haven't been able to sleep at all. I looked over to Seungcheol and he was moving a lot in his sleep. He was snoring softly with his hands under his head. The couch was significantly shorter than him and he didn't have any blanket at all.

I got out of bed and walked over to him.

'Cheollie... ireona...'

I poked his cheek. Seungcheol finally opened his eyes.

'Han what's wrong?'
The concern in his voice made me feel guilty.

'Come to bed with me...'
'I'm fine Jeonghan. Go back to sleep'
Seungcheol tried closing his eyes but I stopped him by tugging his hands.

'You look uncomfortable. The couch is too small. Come to the bed'
'I'm fine. Go sleep. Goodnight'

'Please? I'm scared to sleep alone. The bed feels too empty. This place is new and... I'm scared'
I tried my best to make my voice sound broken so that he would give in.

Seungcheol agreed and we both climbed onto the bed. He held me in his embrace and I rested my head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat which calmed me down.

'Go sleep. I'm here to protect you'

With that, we fell asleep.