Hardest to Lose (Villaraza Series #4)

36 | Brand

36 | Brand

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"Aray!" Tumayo ako at sinapo ang aking noo. "What was that for?"

"Nababaliw ka na ba?" she shouted. "Bakit sa gagong 'yon?"

"O, e ano bang magagawa ko kung nahulog din ako?"

"Alam mo, okay lang naman na lesbian ka tapos may trip kang lalaki. Buhay mo 'yan. Pero . . . seryoso ka? That Markus? He's a damn player! And a manwhore!"

"Akala mo ba gusto ko rin 'to? Never did I see myself loving a guy. Much so, him! Pero ano bang magagawa ko?" I swallowed and averted my gaze. "M-mahal ko na 'ata, e."

Umawang ang kanyang bibig. Mayamaya pa ay umiling-iling siya na tila hinayang na hinayang sa akin. I almost threw the pillow and hoped it would land on her face.

This bitch!

"You're dead," she uttered like a curse. "You're really dead."

I scoffed. "Hindi valid advice mo. Look at you with Nigel. Isa ka ring-"

Hindi ko na naituloy ang sasabihin dahil inunat niya ang buhok ko. I screamed. Pakiramdam ko ay natanggal ang anit ko. Luka-luka talaga!

Tama naman ako, a. Bago siya magalit sa akin dahil may feelings ako sa hinayupak na iyon, isipin niya muna na mahal niya pa rin iyong boyfriend niyang gago.

And besides, as if I would let Markus break me. Siya na rin ang nagsabi na 'ruthless lover' ako. I would always know my worth.

Bumuntong-hininga ako at ipinadaan ang palad sa buong mukha.

This nightmare felt like a daydream. I knew where I stood before. I hated that guy. But why the hell did I fall?

I didn't want this, too. This was embarrassing to me. If I could, I seriously wouldn't!

Fuck. Whatever I felt for him was really weird. I liked - or even loved - him but I didn't want him to know. Hindi dahil hindi niya masusuklian dahil dama ko namang totoo siya sa akin. I was more afraid of doing stuff I was completely against.

I wasn't straight, goddammit! Isa rin siya, e. Alam niya nang lesbian ako, nanlandi pa siya!

"Himala, a. This is a fancy restaurant. Tapos libre mo pa. Anong meron?" Faye teased as she looked around the place.

"Oo nga," Xavier seconded. "Ikaw pinakakuripot na taong kilala ko."

Sarkastiko akong ngumiti. "I'm just being a friend. Be good to me even just for today, okay?"

Ngumuso si Faye saka binalingan na ang menu. Xavier talked a bit before he pointed what he wanted to eat. It was the cheapest one in the menu. He was always considerate.

It was a Sunday and I decided to treat them for dinner. Dapat nga ay kasama sina Gio at iba pang kaibigan namin. But they had their own stuff to attend to. Kaya kami na lang tatlo, which was still favorable on my part. Although I was willing to spend, it would still be great if I could lessen it. Pero nakakapanghinayang pa rin iyong bonding sana naming lahat.

"Hindi pa kayo nagdi-date?" Faye asked when Xavier opened up about my supposed date with Markus. "Ang tagal na, a. Malapit na nga matapos semester."

"Wala, e. Hindi nagtutugma schedule namin."

"Tutal, matagal na rin naman, 'wag na lang kaya kayong mag-date? Ibigay na lang kay Markus 'yong pera."

"You know we can't do that. Kailangan 'yon sa documentation."