Hold Me Close | Kellic

Chapter 35

JUSTIN'S P.O.V

Leaving Kellin was by no means something that I would've wanted to do but I only played a minor, insignificant role in the movie that is Kellin's life after death so I knew it was only right for me to abandon my safety to that it could become someone else's safety. Vic's safety to be exact.

I was constantly wondering how Vic was doing. He was one of my best friends when I was still in Heaven however now, my times in Heaven seem like a millenium away.

He didn't deserve any of what was happening to him nor did he deserve the words that he'd recite to himself every day and every night. Hopefully, those times where he would be nonstop beating himself up were over now that he had Kellin beside him otherwise I doubt he would have ever stopped the haunting thoughts and memories he would have trapped himself for eternity in and that is not an eternity worth experiencing.

Vic was by far the most genuine person I had ever encountered, including the people who were part of my life when I was still breathing. Every moment he spent not loathing himself, he would be smiling and lifting everyone else's spirits higher than we could ourselves. It was like his whole existence was to make other people happy. I don't think anyone could ever understand just how much he deserved love as strong as Kellin's.

I used to find myself missing him a lot but right now I craved the friendship of Kellin.

The Boxes felt like they weren't getting any nearer no matter how far I walked or how closely I was beginning to approach them. I knew it was just me being impatient but it felt like a usual, every day journey was taking the same time it would if I were try walk the entire continent of Asia.

The piles of corpses still hadn't come to an end, continuing to line the path I was walking on. It was awful, I couldn't find an adjective that gave enough emphasis to describe the horrifying sight that I found myself in.

All I wanted to do was try to avoid looking at who the bodies were or trying to identify them. I couldn't stop myself from looking at a couple and it just filled me with dread. The faces were so lifeless and I knew that some of them were Demons that I had seen before, maybe I had walked past them at some point or nodded at them in acknowledgement as some sort of greeting and they just seemed fine but now, seeing them like this, it was absolutely despairing.

Worry coursed throughout me as I desperately hoped that Gabe and Jack weren't among the Demons who found themselves in that unfortunate state in the piles. If Gabe was one of them and I had to see him lifeless again then I don't think I'd be able to stop myself from just ending mine too.

I didn't really understand all of this though. We were all already dead so how was it possible for any of this to even happen? I knew that all these "deaths" would eventually be resurrected naturally but I didn't know how long that would this time.

Eventually, after quite a lot of time had passed, I reached the Boxes. I cursed my luck for my Box being the one at the end. It was so quiet and eery when, ironically enough, it felt like the atmosphere was full of life.

I looked around then realised I was walking past Gabe's Box which completely to my surprise I discovered his door to be open which, even if he was inside, shouldn't be because the door immediately closed itself once the person was inside. I contemplated just forgetting the fact his door was open and continue to trek to my Box but my curiosity got the better of me and so soon I was climbing up the giant chains of Gabe's box.

There was definitely an ache that was slowly spreading across my entire body, indicating that I was still weak but I made an effort to just dismiss it. The closer I got to the door, the more curious I became.