Hold Me Close | Kellic

Chapter 10

VIC'S P.O.V

I fell asleep that night wondering what it would be like to be in Kellin's embrace, to drift off with his arms wrapped tightly around me. The smile never left my face as I thought about how he said that one day he'd hold me close and show me I'm not broken. Although as happy as the thoughts made me I had to keep reminding myself that I didn't know Kellin, I didn't even know what he looked like. He most likely wasn't even gay like I am.

Once I woke up I immediately noticed the presence of Jaime who was standing directly in front of me, arms crossed waiting in anticipation for me to wake up. I groaned in my sleepy state at the light that entered the room but eventually had managed to open my eyes completely. Jaime walked over to me and sat down beside me, looking at me with a serious expression. I began to find it slightly intimidating, especially as I knew he had been watching me sleep waiting for me to come round.

"Has something happened?" I asked cautiously but he answered with his own question.

"Who were you taking to last night?" He asked and my eyes widened slightly.

"What?" I managed to mutter.

"You were talking to someone, I went to check on you after giving you time because you ran away from Tony and I but you were talking.. But there was no one else in the room," he said and by the end he just looked confused. I still hadn't mentally prepared myself for telling them about Kellin in case I had imagined him but I sighed and gave in to Jaime. I hadn't realised that I had began voicing my thoughts to Kellin.

I looked around for any sign of Oli in case he was still watching like when I ran off.

"You'll think I'm crazy," I said quietly but Jaime just shook his head and gave me a reassuring look, informing me that it was ok for me to tell him so as I always did to calm myself, I took a deep breath and looked away from his eyes.

"There's someone I talk to but only I can hear him. He's in my head, his name is Kellin. He makes me happy when I'm sad," I said and Jaime gave me a skeptical look and I realised how much more crazy I sounded when I said it out loud.

"He's real," I said trying to convince Jaime but now also myself, "He is. I've been talking to him for nights now."

"Are you sure, Vic? How did this start?" He asked and it took me a while to think because I had been trying to forget how it began because if I thought about it then I'd wonder why it began.

"I was crying again for Mike and also the fact that I feel like I'm a horrible being and asking for help and well, Kellin somehow heard me. I didn't know who he was and he didn't know who I was. For a while we couldn't remember our names when we spoke to each other but Kellin somehow found out my name. He said that Justin told him." I said.

"Justin? As in the one we just lost?" He asked and I simply nodded.

"Justin had become part of Hell since he became a Fallen Angel and Kellin's a Demon in He-"

"Wait, Kellin's a Demon!?" Jaime suddenly interrupted.

"Yeah?"

"Vic, if Kellin's real you can't be talking to him. You can't. You're an Angel, he's a Demon. It's not right." Jaime said firmly.

"Why not? What's so bad about me talking to Kellin? And he is real! How else would I know that Mike had become a lost soul and tried to escape Hell to find me but got caught and punished and is now being locked away to prevent him from doing it again? Kellin's real, Jaime. I have every right to talk to him." I said. Only moments ago I myself doubted Kellin's existence but I trusted him too much to believe that he's a figure of my imagination.

"But how do you know that's real, Vic? How do you know for sure that that's what's really happening to Mike? And believe me, it's bad for you to be talking to Kellin if he really exists," Jaime said, keeping calm like he always did. I looked him dead in the eye which he suddenly cowered at. He wasn't afraid of me but he knew that I could see behind people's masks and find out what they were really feeling. In his eyes Jaime believed me completely but he was refusing to let on that he simply just didn't trust Kellin or rather the fact that he was a Demon.

"Jaime, he's made me feel better than anyone else has in a long time. Like I said, he makes me happy when I'm sad. Trust Kellin and I, OK?" I said and he was hesitant but eventually nodded. I didn't know what I expecting his reaction to be, I didn't think it would be positive but I didn't think he'd not trust me.

"So you believe me?" Was all I asked and he nodded.

"Is this why you ran away?" Jaime asked and this time I was the one to nod.

"When you asked about how I knew this about Mike I felt like I'd be pressured into confessing about Kellin and I wasn't ready yet."

"You realise I'm going to have to tell Tony as well right?" He asked and I sighed but I knew he was right. The three of us were in on everything together, it would be wrong for only two of us to know something and for the other to not.

"Ok, well, that's all I wanted to know. I'll let you rest now," he said before getting up but I quickly stopped him.

"Jaime, why don't you trust Kellin?" I asked but he just looked at me before turning around and leaving. It annoyed me a little because I had just explained everything that was happening in my head and yet he couldn't tell me that. This was Jaime though, he'll have a good reason for keeping it from me or maybe he just wasn't sure himself.

I got out of bed and decided to try and start a conversation with Kellin but immediately thought against the idea when I remembered that he'd be out to try and get Mike.

Instead I began walking to the garden again. I was anxious as to what Tony would think about the Kellin situation but Tony was an understanding Turtle so I didn't let myself worry about it too much.

My mind did however drift to what I would say to Mike if Kellin does succeed in finding him and managing to find a way of letting me talk to Mike. There were too many apologies running through my head. I knew that half of it wasn't even my fault yet I still held myself responsible.

I was slowly walking through a field of flowers at my own relaxed pace, thinking just like always. I sat down and looked around at the beautiful flowers surrounding me. This part of Heaven made me feel most at peace. What really did it for me though was when I began thinking about how Kellin will hold me close and show me I'm not broken. It was slightly pointless though because it was a fact that I had broke hundreds of times but maybe, just maybe, Kellin could be the one to fix me.

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Also, there are a lot of filler chapters. Mainly because they slightly explain things and I want the story to last longer and not be rushed so please bare with me.

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