Dazai pov
I'm being perfectly honest when I say I had no idea what I was doing when I kissed Chuuya.
It just sort of... happened, I guess. I don't know. One second we were talking and now I'm kissing him. He starts to pull away, but I grab his arms, pinning him against the wall. My tounge snakes into his mouth, feeling around.
"Wait." he says, pulling away, panting. His face is flushed bright red.
"Awww, are you that embarrassed by me?" I tease.
"N-no, it's just, what are we gonna tell people?" He grabs my hands. "We're from enemy organizations, this can't possibly go well."
"Are you saying," I smirk. "You want to be in a relationship with me?"
"What?" He stutters. "I mean, wasn't that obvious, I mean, I, yes, but also, ughhhh" he buries his face in his hands.
"You don't have to be embarrassed, Chuuya." I grab his chin, tilting his face towards mine. "I like you a lot. Let's figure everything out later, I'm tired right now, I want to sleep." I yawn and give him a hug. I am actually pretty tired. I've had a long day.
"God, you're so needy." Chuuya mumbles, stroking my hair. He picks me up bridal style and deposits me onto the bed. "There. Go to sleep." He says, turning towards the other room.
"What, you're not gonna sleep with me?" I tease, grabbing his choker and pulling him back towards me.
"Hey, what the hell!" He yells, spinning around and smacking me. "No, I'm not, Jesus!"
"Pleeeeeeaaseee, Chuuya?" I give him his best puppy dog eyes and he mutters something but reluctantly agrees.
"Fine. I'm gonna go get changed, you get changed too."
"Can I come with you?"
"To change, what the fuck, of course not, Jesus, why are you so gross?" He stomps into the bathroom and slams the door behind him. I chuckle. I missed you, Chuuya.
When we're both changed, he lies down next to me, snuggling into my chest.
"Thanks for everything." I whisper.
"Anytime." He says, stroking my hair. "I'm always gonna be here for you, Dazai. You can tell me anything, ok?" I nod and he seems satisfied so he closes his eyes.
I feel his breathing grow even and know that he's asleep. Soft moonlight filters through the curtains and illuminates his face in patches, giving him a sort of glow. I smile to myself. I would do anything to protect you. I love you.
I usually have a harder time falling asleep, but tonight, sleep comes easily.
...
"Yeah. Mhm."
I wake up to the sounds of Chuuya on the phone with somebody. I can see the place on the bed where he was lying, the sheets are all messed up. I sigh and sit up, walking out of the room.
"Ok, thanks. See you later." He hangs up his phone.
"Who was that?" I ask sleepily.
"Oh, I was talking to a therapists' office." He says, holding his arms out and drawing me in for a hug, which I accept.
"A therapist? Why?" I ask, still half asleep. I wanna go back to bed.
He lets go of me gently and raises his eyebrows. "Has it ever occurred to you that, I don't know, an individual such as yourself who, oh I don't know, has hurt himself so badly and so many times that he needs to be hospitalized might need a therapist?"
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You're My Sun - Soukoku
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