WILSHIRE; B.E

five

Y/N (when y/n says 'you', you're referring to Billie)

I haven't seen you in a few weeks. I think Ryder wants you away from me. I'd wake up and text you, you read it and don't reply. I handled the situation horribly but how are you supposed to act when you have a grown man's hands tugging on you? I've extended my stay in LA, just in case you texted me and wanted to stay at mine. I don't why I was expecting a text. That's so dumb. I don't text Ryder like that, but shit, it's rare if he ever hits back. I want to know if you're okay. I hope you don't hate me.

****************************** (flash back)

"Baby." I say lowly. Me and Billie have been doing this affair thing since we confessed our feelings in the hotel.

Billie brings our lips together for a kiss. one kiss. two kisses. three kisses. four kisses. five kisses. I kissed back, resting my hands on her waist. From her lips I melted. The kisses were chaste, they were so loving. You could feel the passion, flowing from her to me. If I were bulletproof, she could shoot right through me.

"Yes, my love?" I just kissed her again but my mind was going 80 miles per hour. I knew what we were doing was wrong. I know, I should be feeling super guilty right now. I mean Ryder's my friend and she was his girlfriend but she was so much more than that.

She was more energy than she was a person. She was a god in human form. She meant everything to me. In such a short amount of months, weeks, days. It doesn't matter. There was a spell, she had casted on me and I fell for it. hard.

"Please, Billie. Drop him. We can be together. We can live in Paris because I know that's what you want to do one day. I'll drop it all for you even my job, my friends, my everything. We can go off grid and see the world." Our breaths weren't in unison anymore but I took every ounce of my pride in my body to admit to this girl I wanted her. I wanted something for us.

"Baby, everything I got if you say the word then it's yours. Please."

We were both staring at each other. Our faces were so red. Our skin was so hot that when we touched, I felt like i was burning.

"I can't fully be in love with you, Y/N. I'm sorry. It's just that I'm with him. Everytime, i'm not with him it starts problems." Billie cups my face and sighs, "But I swear to god Y/N. Everytime I'm with him, i always wonder what you're doing. Like, what type of sweater you're wearing or what type of music have you been finding? Every time, i'm with you it's like heroin. My confidence has gone up, 100% since we met. I'm begging you. Wait for me."

I just nodded my head and kissed her. "You know i'm gonna play my music whenever because that's what we bonded over." I say, trying to lighten the mood.

She smiled and kissed me, our noses gently smashing together. I couldn't help but kiss back.

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I tried to eat breakfast. I tried to take a shower. I'm trying so hard to take care of myself but I can't eat knowing you're with him and not at my place. I've never been jealous of any person. A man especially but that's because i got everything i want at hand. Except you.

A knock on my door, knocked me out of my sad state.

"WAKE UP YO."

It's too damn early for this man.*