We won.
It's everything we've dreamed of. And I don't know how to feel.
Yes, I am happy that after all that we've been through and all the hard work we finally reached our goal of winning nationals. I am happy that one of my dances was the reason that we won. But I feel so emotionally drained. Shouldn't I be feeling more intensely happy? Why don't I? It's all so confusing.
After receiving our prize, Katelyn rushed everyone off to her parents place. It had only been an hour and I was tired of being congratulated by people I hardly knew, all Katelyn's, Alice's and Kelly's friends and family. My parents did go to the competition, but they weren't party people.
I had yet to have The Vamps come and congratulate me. My nerves we're running high, not wanting to know what they were going to say about my dance. I put so much emotion and energy into the dance and I'm unsure of if it all came across to my friends.
You know you're about to break when you can feel the lump building in your throat. The silent tears, the struggling screams that you all hold back. Before everyone can see my fall apart I go and walk outside into the cold autumn wind. Sitting on the bench, I barely put my head in my hands when the door opens again but I don't bother to look up, expecting it be Katelyn coming to cheer me up ineffectively. "Can I sit here." The voice asks, the voice I didn't want to here.
"Sure." I reply and Connor sits next to me.
"It's a bit cold to be sitting outside, isn't it?" His voice is light hearted. He may as well be talking to a statue because I don't reply. "You're dance was amazing."
"Thanks." I mumble.
"Would you like to tell me what inspired it?" We sit in the silence of the night again. After taking a deep breath, I decide to talk.
"I've been secretly falling apart." My voice cracks at the end of my sentence, but I continue to talk anyway. "Everyday has felt like a battle, like it's an effort to get out of bed and face the day. Deep down, I know the reason. It's because I love you. I love you so damn much and it hurts because I know you never could. I have loved you before I even met you." I stand up, realising what I just confessed. "I- I have to go." I say, before leaving the party and heading back to my apartment, leaving Connor speechless.
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A/N: Hello, it's me. I was wondering if after all these years you'd like to meet.
I'm really shit at updating. SORRY.
~Melody~
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Dangerous || Connor Ball
Fanfic"I've been secretly falling apart..." ----- Violet is a dancer. Violet is a fangirl, it's as simple as that. She obsesses over books and bands, one band in particular. The Vamps. She never expected to meet them though, her luck was never good. But...
