Multi Fandom One Shots And Short Stories

(DSMP-KARLNAP) Tell Myself I'll Be Alright, Even If It's All A Lie (2)

Here's part 2! Again, pretty short, but we're getting there.

TW- Making out but going a little too far...

Word count: 448

Karl loved kissing.  He loved touching people, hugs were divine, and he really was okay with a lot of comparatively intimate behavior.  He wasn't ashamed to admit that his love language was physical touch. There was no doubt about it. 

But there were times where things maybe got a bit too heated and his insides began to squirm with uncomfortable butterflies. He was fine with most touches, but sometimes... It was just too much.

Sapnap had Karl backed against a secluded wall in their school, one hand pressed to the stone beside his head and the other gripping his waist. They were pressed together, lips interlocked in a heated kiss, hands trailing over the other's skin.

It was fine.  This was fine!  It was just kissing, nothing they hadn't done a million times before... But Karl couldn't ignore how much his stomach twisted as Sap stepped closer, pushing one of his legs between Karl's. 

He tensed, praying that Sapnap wouldn't feel how rigid his muscles had gone. He apparently didn't, as the kisses he pressed to the taller boy's throat and jaw didn't waver. 

It was Sapnap! He could do this for Sapnap!  He loved him and this was something that Sap loved... He would do this for him.  He could ignore it and he could pretend for the man that he loved.

Or so he thought.  He couldn't ignore it anymore, couldn't stand the touch of the trailing hands roaming over his body, couldn't push away the feeling of fingers sliding under his waistband.

He didn't even realize he was moving until Sapnap's wrist was clenched in his grasp and he was pulling it away from his skin as he turned his head away from his lover's kisses.

"Darling," Sap panted, "what's wrong?"

Karl felt like he couldn't breathe around the lump in his throat. He just shook his head, his eyes closed as he tried to regulate his breathing again. 

"It's just-" he swallowed thickly, "I-" His voice was drowned out by the resounding clang of the bell.  He could feel his entire body sagging with relief. 

As he and Sapnap went their separate ways to their next class, Karl couldn't help but wonder how many more bells he could be saved by until it was too late to go back.  How many more close calls could he brush past until he would be alone again? 

Because that's what would happen if Sapnap ever found out.  He'd leave him, crushed and desperate and alone, drowning in sorrow as he tried to put his life back together again...

No one could ever love someone as broken as him.

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A/N So yeah... Literally my deepest insecurities.

❤️Al