I Think He Knows

𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗶𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗵𝗼𝗹𝘆 𝘁𝗲𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗲

A̸𝘀𝗵𝗲𝗿 D̸𝗮𝘃𝗶𝘀
𝟮𝟯
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Why the fuck did he have that look? Why didn't he agree? Why do I continue fucking up? Those were all of the questions that ran through my mind when he kissed me without a word after I asked him not to fall in love with me. It was mostly a joke since I couldn't fathom someone like Mason falling for me anyway but then he acted like that.

My brain was in knots as we continued to kiss, his hand in my freshly cleaned hair and my fingers curling around his shoulders as I straddled his lap. Why the fuck did I agree to have an exclusive fuckbuddy?! My mind screamed over and over again like a sharp pain, my head hurt from the stress that I had unintentionally given myself. I just wanted to fuck and relieve some of my stress not make more of it.

I needed to think things through before acting on them and especially before agreeing to practically be with someone that I didn't want to be with. Exclusively fucking someone that you are friends with is literally a relationship. Like are you fucking kidding me?

"Mason," I muttered against his soft lips. They felt nice against the cracked surface of mine and I almost stopped myself from saying anything but I needed to clear the air since I could not be exclusive.

"Hm?" He hummed pulling back from the kiss and he looked so fucking hot. His black waves once neatly placed were now frizzy and sticking out from my fingers tugging on the strands. His glasses were crooked on his perfect nose and his dark blue eyes gazed up at me curiously as I looked away from his face. I stared down between us at the bright pink unicorn tie that hung loosely around his neck and fiddled with the pointed tip of it wondering how I could phrase this.

"Umm- hm..." His eyebrows raised and I chuckled at how cute he could be with just a simple lift of his brows. "Well you see- I just don't think it's a good idea for us to be exclusively fucking."

"Why not?"

"See you're the type of person who... You want sex to be special and I know you just told me you were a whore or whatever but that was just from your circumstances back then. This is different though Mason because if you did end up liking me more than just for a fuck- well that would be the end of our friendship," I explained, and the further I spoke the softer his eyes were. This was hurting his feelings and although he was nodding like he understood I could tell just from his eyes that every word was cutting deeper.

"So if you would rather just stay friends with no sex I'm okay with that but if you did want to be fuckbuddies we just can't be exclusive. Okay?" I finished and he sucked his bottom lip between his teeth chewing nervously as his eyes flickered away from me. His hands were still on my hips and he drew me closer to him subconsciously. He was contemplating my offers.

He was quiet as if he couldn't figure out what he wanted so I pushed back some of the black strands that fell over his eyes and said softly, "We can just stay friends, really it's okay with me."

"Or we could be friends while you put it in me. I don't care either way," I grinned in amusement when he looked back at me with a frown.

"That's so vulgar Asher," He complained and I just laughed in response.

"Okay sorry, I meant you could dick me down but only if you want to."

"I think that's worse," He chuckled. Head back hot like. "How often do you get tested?" He asked.

"Every six months."