Cards Against Us All {HS}

-Chapter Thirty One-

Chapter Thirty One:

Harry

I liked taking care of Clara when she was sad. I wasn't happy that she was sad but I liked being able to care about her openly. Even if she did play that trick on Billie and I.

I made the Sunflower song up on the spot. I can sometimes do it but most of the time it's hard. I was happy with what I made up and as soon as she was asleep I wrote the lyrics down in the back of my journal.

I don't usually write lyrics down in my journal but it was the closest thing I had with pen and paper without waking Clara up.

The second day after Clara's mum's anniversary, we headed to a new casino because a new place meant a new casino. Even after Clara explained what she knew about Gio, I was still so confused and I wasn't part of the group that they had. I was an outcast. I was just brought along and I didn't know what I was meant to do when we went back to Cambridge.

These people had become a family that I always earned for. They had become the friends that I desperately needed to keep going. I also had started to notice that I was having a lot less panic attacks. I had been sleeping through the night and I was yet to have a nightmare with Clara in the bed next to me.

I had a sneaky suspicion that when Clara and I go back to sleeping in separate beds that I would have nightmares again. I like knowing that there is someone there and there is no chance that I could share a bed with or even get to know somebody else.

I was woken up by Clara, sprawling herself on me and kissing down my chest. "Well what a good morning this is." I said, tiredness flowing over me. My voice was scratchy and coarse.

"Happy first of December, baby." She booped me on the nose, making me scrunch my nose up. I pushed her hand away and I engulfed her with my arms.

"Is it Christmas time then?"

She nodded and said, "maybe the naughty elves have visited." She winked at me and I just laughed because I didn't really know what she was talking about. "You have no idea what I'm going on about, do you?"

"Nope, not a clue." I shook my head and I smiled at her.

"Oh right, yeah. Shit family who apparently didn't do much for Christmas. The Elves Behaving Badly is something some parents use to get their children excited for Christmas. They set the elves up in mischievous ways and there is a rule that the children can't touch the elves because then the elves might disappear. Their magic goes away." She explained to me and it seemed like a nice idea.

"Oh. That seems like children would like that. I never had anything. I would get a 20p advent calendar and that was it."

"Well I'll buy you an expensive one when we get back to Cambridge and It'll make up for all those years you didn't have one." She said, straddling my thighs.

"Okay, deal." I nodded, brushing my hands up and down her thighs and onto her hips.

"We have to go out today. Tonight." She told me but I already knew so I nodded, sitting up.

"Best we make the most out of Milan then because if I remember correctly, we leave tomorrow." I knew that the stay in Milan was short but when I found out it was only a few days I really was surprised.

I watched her eyes light up and she slapped her hands down on my chest in excitement. "Oh god! Yes!"

I tucked my bottom lip in my mouth and I stopped myself from laughing, "do you know how that sounded?"

She looked at me blankly and said, "no..."

"To anyone not in the room, it would have sounded like you were getting railed."