Cards Against Us All {HS}

-Chapter Twenty Six-

Chapter Twenty Six:

Clara

Imagine sailing on a boat. The feeling of being free. The feeling of having the wind and water hitting your skin, carving you.

That's how I feel when I am around the people I care about. Around the people that I love. There are very few people that I actually love. I care about a lot of people but love? There aren't that many.

There is my dad. I loved my dad with my entire heart because he's been there through everything I've been through and he never once shied away from having to take on the responsibility of being the role of mum and dad.

I loved my mum with everything in me. The type of unconditional love you should have for a parent. Although my mum wasn't around anymore, I loved her so much and she had such a good run in life. It made me grateful to know that she was happy when she had me and to leave me with such a good person.

There is also Billie and she was there through everything without knowing what I went through. She knew how to calm every panic attack I had down and how to wake me up from every nightmare that I had. She was honestly the best friend a person could have.

There is another person that was starting to creep into the side of my life that involved the people I love. That person was Harry. He just did everything right without knowing what I could and couldn't handle. I had started to spend almost every waking minute of every day with him and I never worried about anything when I was with him.

I'm not saying that I was in love with him just yet but I was definitely falling down that rabbit hole. It scared me in all honesty because I hadn't ever felt the way that I felt about Harry with anyone else before.

I had known Harry for over three months and I had been spending all day with him for almost three months.

I was falling in love with Harry Styles.

And I didn't know if he felt the same way. He acts like he feels the same way but you can't ever trust men and the way that they think.

A few days after we had arrived in Monaco, Gio was taking Billie, Gio and Liam on their drop.

I had gone downstairs after finding out his apartment number from Liam. I turned up at his door and after banging on the door for a good five minutes, I heard him curse through the thick wood. He answered the door and was clearly shocked when he saw me standing at the door. He was part way through getting changed and he had a towel wrapped around his hair.

"Can I come with you?" I stood in front of Gio and batted my eyes.

"No." He replied, crossing his arms.

In retrospect, it was probably a silly idea but my thought process was that I already knew what was going on so I could just tag along.

"Come on. Please. I'm asking nicely." I was begging at this point.

"Clara, the answer is still no, no matter the amount of puppy eyes you give me." Gio pulled his phone out of his jeans pocket and punched in his passcode.

"Why fucking not? I know everything already so what is the point of keeping me from it?" I stood my ground and acted like a whiny teenager.

"Because there are things that you aren't meant to know or be involved in." He sounded slightly exasperated. His hands travelled from across his body to his hips.

"Please."

"No.

"Please."

"No."