Forbidden Love [Komi Shouko x Fem!reader]

In common

 We went through a surprisingly empty line for tickets. Komi still looked nervous, but I held her hand for reassurance, and got a cute blush from her, which made me smile. we got a chance to ride the ferris wheel, and since it had seen through gondolas, komi trembles at the sight of it, i squeeze her hand gently and chuckle a bit. I let her through in the clear gondola first and went last as the ride operator invited us in with a cheerful smile. we sit down across from each other in a somewhat comfortable silence, feeling the ride slowly take us up to the sky. "ooh.. I can see the trail we took to get here! along with the boats and stores, it feels like I grew an insane amount just from looking at it from this height." komi nods, slightly, looking in the same direction I'm looking. and then engulf ourselves in another moment of silence again.

I utter a word until komi reads my mind "am... i good enough.. for you?..." I look at her with a soft, but shocked expression. "a-as you can see....i'm not very fun...or o-outgoing..." a smile grew on my face "i was thinking about the same thing.." "Hm?..." "Well.. Since this is my first time going out with someone, I thought 'how did I end up with someone as sweet as you..' and then I felt that going to the city might have been too normal and cliche, so I was worried that you weren't having a good time. I felt dumb.. ..maybe sharing my feelings with you was a bad idea-" "n-no, it wasn't...." komi declared as she stood up, the gondola wobbling at the sudden movement, i prop my hands up incase she falls but she sat back down before anything went haywire. "I don't think you are dumb....I think you're pretty great, maybe I'm bothering you because I'm not good enough.. to be yours.."

"I guess we have the same doubts. you're really great too, all of this feels like a dream I never want to wake up from. Even if some of those thoughts pop up in my head, I try to stay positive about it. I guess we really are the same." she reacts with a blush, shock covering her face at the similarity "so... when we are together, try to be confident in yourself, and I will strive to do the same. and always keep in mind that I love you.... dearly. I will love you no matter what. No matter what hardships we come across, my heart will never change even the slightest about you.'' I blush at the last sentence, and so does she. "..but... please don't force yourself.... be yourself when you're around me, and i'll contribute to that just as much. okay?" We were both a blushing mess at this point of time. Then before we realized it, the ride was over, so we got off and I thanked the ride operator, and headed our way to the station side by side.

"Can i... hold your hand?" Komi says out of the blue, quite nervously. "yes.. you may." I take her hand in mine gently, still hesitant but I take it eventually, intertwining ourselves in our grip just right. I gently squeezed her hand while looking at her, quite love struck on how I even managed to let her be in my life. she smiles, blushing ever so lovingly, enjoying the moment she wanted to experience. Even if my clothes might be too loud, my hands feel sweaty, i'm holding on too tightly, or i might just be too close......i don't let go. We eventually headed back to the station; accompanied by a partly cloudy sunset.

                                                                 [Time skip back to Y/N's home]

We thought it was best if we headed to my home. The hickeys on our necks won't just be covered up in a scarf forever, so we relied on some makeup, and a few ice packs. I hated how cold it felt against my neck but we had no other choice right now. The date was still fun though. I couldn't help but think over my dream again. I guess dreams aren't important for many people since it truly doesn't give out a strong meaning but... these ones are different somehow. Maybe it's a memory that I stupidly forgot and it's now haunting me for doing so? Probably. And I wouldn't blame it. I was so lost in thought that I felt komi's hand on my hair, stroking it gently. I come back to my senses and focus on her touch "you're really bold today aren't you.." I looked into her eyes, as we were both seemingly lost in eachother. "..You zoned out." "ah.. I'm sorry. I was just too busy thinking about how much fun I had with you.." "I had fun with you too..." she says, "you have really nice hair..." she mutters softly "thank you love..." I whisper, taking in her touch as the patterns of her finger stroking are almost identical to how I pet Kaido. "You do like cats.. right? " she nods slowly, smiling gently "i think i mentioned you to my cat before.. Do you want to see if we can find him?"



 she nods, almost excited to see my fur baby, i wouldn't blame her as im quite thrilled too. We look through the common rooms, under the beds, up cabinets and above the fridge, until I find him under my bed sheets, hidden in plain sight as if I didn't just search my room. My first instinct was to not disrupt him but I needed to see him. I remove the blankets, he still sleeps unbothered. I pick him up slowly and bring him down to the living room, "I found him, he's so sneaky sometimes.." probably because of all the trauma weve gone through- anyways- "Say hello to your new mama, kaido" kaido meows happily as komi looks at him, wide eyed that i said such a thing but seemingly happy nonetheless. Komi looks super excited to be another cat's mom, chocolate and kaido being her two favorites now. She pets kaido gently, kaido feeling quite comfortable that hes purring loudly.


 I let her hold him, and i never saw a smile so bright. She looked so lovely as she was holding kaido, the way she's petting him, and the way he responds to the affection is beyond words. "What do you think of him? I'm glad he took a good liking to you." she nuzzles her face in his fur, feeling the warmth, and the softness s she mumbles unintelligible words. I laugh,"speak up love, i can't hear you because you have kaido's fur covering your face." she lifted her face slightly, strands of cat hair sticking to her face "he reminds me of you... so nice and gentle... and so pretty..." "aww... thank you shouko. I heard that people who own animals have a personality similar to them, and i'm glad you think that." a smile carves my face as we sit next to each other on the couch, her head on my shoulder and my arm around her waist, placing the furball in the middle of both of us; cuddling close for the rest of the day. 

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