Forbidden Love [Komi Shouko x Fem!reader]

Unleashed

Children are talking and laughing in the background, some are playing around with school materials, some are doing their work.. but out of all of everyone, the one next to me is dead calm. 

what was her name? why can't I see her clearly? why does she haunt my mind? 

she's looking at me with an unsettling stare. it looks like I'm talking to her. she looks less tense. 

why is it blurry? the only thing I can kind of see is her short hair and eyes.

"-/n... Y/n!" the girl chants all so suddenly, so does the teacher and all the children.

I snap out of it as najimi shakes me by the shoulders in my desk, my vision gets dizzy as they keep shaking me, making me groan. "urgh... eh?" I mutter in a confused tone

School sadly started again after the last week of winter break. We went to school with our mandatory uniforms and completed homework. I couldn't say the same for Najimi by how they were basically pleading with me to help them with their homework that they never started weeks before school was going to start.

  "Y/n!!! oh God I thought I lost you! my homework isn't gonna do itself!" they say in a fake cry.  "I thought you were going to become like Tadano! too ordinary and bland.." they place their back of their hand on their forehead, closing their eyes in a dramatic way and placing one over their heart. "huh?" Tadano says, confused on why he's brought into this, and kind of hurt from what Najimi said. "anyways... you've been acting like this for a while now, Y/n. what's been on your mind lately for you to zone out like that?" Tadano says in a curious tone. "honestly... I don't know. I've been getting certain flashbacks of.. my childhood? its all just so confusing.." I let out a sigh, placing my hand on the bridge of my nose, feeling komi by my side and expressing the same concerned confusion as Tadano. 

"Well, what did you see? Hmmmm?" Najimi says, right up on my face. i back away a few inches and sigh. "I saw an elementary schooler. She was short and had short hair right up to her neck. I only saw her hair and eyes.. She looked anxious. It looked like i was helping her with something.. Might have been homework." "bummer.. And you don't know who that kid might be?" my head meets the wooden desk, placing my head down. "Nope.. i don't remember anything from elementary.. Its a surprise that everything is coming back now. I'm trying to think of people i know that are similar to the kid. Right now i only have superstitions that it might be-"

The bell rings arrupively right when i was about to say who they might be, everyone goes back to their seats and waits for the teacher to begin instruction. My mind wanders off again, thinking of more possible kids i remember off of my mind. Was it najimi? Nah.. their hair was short before yes, but not to the color the girl had.. Tadano? Of course not. He's not a girl. No matter how much work he puts on crossdressing i doubt it would be the same. ...Shouko?.. Hmm.. was she even in my elementary? Ugh.. i can't remember..

"L/n-san, can you read this section of the book?" the teacher calls upon me, placing my head away from the clouds. I stand up from my desk and get out the assigned book, following where the class left off.

I read in a gentle, monotone voice, "'The mistress tried and tried hopelessly to find who the man in the black cloak was. She was stuck in her royal chambers day and night, reminiscing and connecting clues on who it might have been. all of that restless work and yet she never looked forward upon her, to see the man she was looking for was her husband. her soulmate.'"

i sit back down as the teacher picks another student to read, not noticing that my girlfriend has been glancing at me from time to time. I feel her stare and look over to my side, she shocked and embarrassed that she got caught and looks away. A low chuckle escapes from me when she turns away. I study her features for a millionth time, not getting enough of how just kind and perfect she is. I take the time and compare the features from the girl in my flashbacks. her eyes are somewhat the same.. Not as anxious or stressed. But her hair is really long... eh.. I doubt it as well. Komi finally stares back and i smile warmly, focusing my attention back on the lesson.

[Timeskip to the end of the day]

Me and my girlfriend were walking together back home after a long, and confusing day. We walked shoulder to shoulder, leading her to her home. We stop as we reach the main entrance of her gate. "I'll see you tomorrow, okay? Don't stay up too late Shouko." i laugh softly. She shakes her head and bows her head, blushing more. "...i have a question." komi mutters. I tilt my head in curiosity. "What is it?" my voice laced with confusion. "..Can we... h-hold hands... for a little bit?" she looks at me with a hopeful and exciting look. I nod and extend my hand, and so does she. We interlace our fingers once more comfortably. She lets out a small sigh and lets out a little 'pompf.' i chuckle and slowly place a kiss on the back of her hand. Her face turns a bright pink at the feeling of my lips with her hand. "...i love you Shouko." a blush covers my cheeks. She nods and fumbles over her words. "Love.... You.. t-too.." we stay silent for what it seemed like forever until i spoke up. "I should probably go now.." my voice toned with a shaky and anxious feel. komi nods and enters her gate, waving goodbye, "...get better.. Please. Im here.. If you want to talk.." i nod and return the gesture and walk away to the place i sadly call my humble abode. 

I place my bag on the couch and look inside my fridge, thinking of what I can make with the scarce food. I close it and look through the kitchen shelves, getting a plate for me and my cat until I notice a hoard of pills. "What the fuck..." I mutter under my breath as I remove the plates and set it aside, taking out all the bottles and looking at the labels.. Dilantin, Valium, more Dilantin.. A ton of melatonin.. My hands shake violently and I start to hyperventilate, dropping the bottles I once had in my hands as I slowly realize..


They Have Been Drugging Me.

[1144 words]

[Might change the cover page in a few hours! this bundle of trauma and fluff needs a little makeover.. ;D]