looking through his glasses.

part 36/ i should have told you

i miss the smiles.
i miss laughing together.
these days
it seems
all of that went away.
i feel like you're the only one who can save me now.
i made you my world
-huge mistake
but it's too late.
i need change in my life.
i need to leave.
is it just me?
i'm probably just over thinking.
i'm so scared when i leave
and walk out those doors
i'll never hear from you again.
is that the change i need?
i want you to love me.
but i can't stay in this in between place anymore.
i look in the mirror
and that's not me anymore.
i want me back
i want my life back.
but i really just want you to love me.
it seems like yesterday we couldn't have been any closer
today everything i once knew is drifting away faster than i can see it go.
one last dance
one last song
one more kiss
i never got to say i love you and maybe i should have, so you knew exactly how i felt.
watch you stop in your tracks
see how you react
i loved you then
i love you now.
three years ago
three years from now
whenever, wherever
i'll tell you.
but don't leave.
don't disappear.
i want the things that can't be bought
can't be forced
can't be found in songs
i'm just wishing and waiting for things i know will never be.
if the feelings aren't the same
at least you would know how i feel.
i miss the smiles
i miss the laughs
the secrets
the dreams
i miss you.