looking through his glasses.

part 5/ im pissed so you should be too

i'm pissed.
so you should be too.
i'm pissed that we're falling out of touch.
touch.
notice how i didn't say love.
because the only one in love
was me.
i'm the only one who fell.
not you,
not we.
but me.
i.
i'm pissed that you don't feel the same way.
that you're not going through the struggles that i am.
i'm not wishing these feelings of hate and anger on you.
but i'm pissed that we're not on the same level.
i can't stoop down to your level
because lets be honest here,
i'm the one on the ground and you're standing above me, looking at me
giving me this weird face of disgust
almost as if you're saying to me
"lyndsey it's not the serious get up and stop being a fool...
it's embarrassing"
and trust me, i know it is.
i'm pissed that you don't care about how i'm doing.
you ask "are we good"
but you're only asking because you don't want anyone to notice anything is up between us.
you're not asking to check up on me.
you told me things that you didn't even mean. you just said what you thought i wanted to hear.
but i put my entire body and soul into the things i said to you.
i always have.
you don't open up to me anymore and i'm pissed.
that's now how our friendship was.
our entire friendship was built on the fact that you opened up so easily towards me.
you used to tell me everything.
even if it was years ago.
you say you don't want anything to change between us
but open ur damn eyes and look around.
nothing is the same.
but you don't care,
no one notices anything; and that's all that matters to you.
i'm pissed and you should be too.