My Ex Mafia

Chapter 46

My Ex Mafia
Chapter 46

Nicole

"No." I said taking my hand away from Sylvester. "Kevin's a good guy. He's a good person, he's not apart of the Mafia. He's not a monster he wouldn't do that. I don't believe you" I shot back as I pushed my body completely up on the bed which I regretted immediately. "Fuck" I cursed out loud as I placed my hands on my stomach as most of the pain was coming from it.

"Nicole stop moving for fuck sakes, and I'm not lying to you. I know you don't want to believe that your sweet and caring fuck buddy is a bad guy, but you have to." He said in a rough tone as he leaned back into the hospital chair that was in the room.
I couldn't believe it, I didn't want to believe it. Kevin, my Kevin the one who shared his breakfast with me when I was late. The first person who made me feel normal again, he made me forget about all the heartbreak and pain of Sylvester. The person who me feel like I could fall for another person again.

I'd be lying if I said that I never thought about some sort of future that we could've had together, because I did. I thought about how he'd give me a life that I deserved. One where I wasn't a target to the mafia. One where I could have a normal life, with a normal relationship and with my dream career.

A life that I could never have with Sylvester because he was the Don of the Gravanos. But it was all a lie. Kevin was a lie or should I say Alessandro. He used me from the start. It was all planned, from the night we bumped into each other in Sylvester's club, to the Café. It was all fucking planned.
I couldn't hold it in anymore. I felt my tears running down my face as I cried uncontrollable. "He...he tried to kill me. I trusted him fuck I slept with him and he sent a fucking explosive to kill me." I cried out. Sylvester sent Rico out and sat in the bed with me. He wrapped his arms around me as I cried into his chest.

"I'm an idiot. I thought that he'd be that one normal thing that I could get in this fucked up life that I'm apart of now. But I don't get to have a normal life anymore." My pain turned into anger at the realisation that this was my life now. The Mafia. Whether I wanted it or not, when I came back to New York I thought I'd get my old life back, but it's gone, the life that I had died the moment I stepped into that Restaurant where I met Sylvester for the first time.

If I could go back in time to stop myself from stepping into that restaurant or get myself to go to another restaurant, in complete and total honesty I don't think I would change anything.
Before I found out about the mafia and who Sylvester really was, I learnt how to love another human being with my whole heart.
I learnt how to be happy with him and honestly before all the drama it was the best parts of my life. But things have changed, I know who he is, I know how ruthless he can be and I know what he'd do for the Mafia.

"No more mafia" his words ran through my mind, the mafia was all he knew since he was child would he really leave it all behind just like that.

"I'll kill him."Sylvester said to me as I tried to control my sobs. "He'll pay for what he's done to you. For touching you, for trying to kill you. I'll make him suffer and beg for mercy." Sylvester was a ruthless man and normally I'd get scared when he spoke this way but I felt nothing. I was numb. I didn't know how to respond to him.

"Nicole?"

"Mmm?"

"Look at me" he moved his head slightly to look directly at me but I couldn't move my head to look at him. He placed his hand on my chin and lifted my head up to face him. "This will all be over soon I'll make sure of it. He won't hurt you I won't let him" I looked back down and be sighed. He got out of the bed and walked out to where Rico was.

I tried to move once more but each time I moved the more pain it caused to my body. I felt helpless, which made me start crying again. After a while I found myself drifting back to sleep.

Sylvesters Pov

I felt bad for Nicole. I disliked Alessandro from the beginning, I couldn't trust him. Especially since he was sleeping with Nicole which made me dislike him more. But Nicole trusted him and even though I disliked him I knew that she had some sort of feelings for him which meant that she wouldn't take the truth too well.

Before I told Nicole the truth about Alessandro, I told her how I felt about her and how I wanted her to know that I no longer wanted to be apart of the mafia. But before I could go into detail about it we were interrupted by Rico which left me to explain everything about Alessandro and how she was the target.

I wanted us to speak about everything. About us and about a future for us but I couldn't. It wasn't the right time or place for it, she was processing the truth about someone who she thought was close to her so I left her alone in her room.

I stood outside her door with Rico who had a blunt in his hand. "How's she taking the news?" He asked as he handed me the blunt. "Well she cried for most of it, she feels used and I hate it. The Lucchesse cunt used Nicole. He was inside of her." I punched the wall that was behind me in anger at the thought of Alessandros hands touching Nicole. I took a puff of the blunt as I calmed myself down. "He's a dead man Rico" I handed the blunt back to him as I looked through the door window to check on Nicole.

She had fallen asleep and the sight of her being so peaceful just calmed me down. For her I'd drop everything, for her I'd put my own life on the line. If it meant that she'd be safe and happy. I just wanted her to be happy and the one thing that she made abundantly clear was that she wanted a normal life.
The life before she found out who I really was and that's what I wanted to give to her. The life she deserved, the one far away from this one that I put her in and once I end Alessandro for good and ensure her safety, then that's the life that I'll give to her.

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