YOU DESERVE THE WORLD: Completed

chapter 17: grief

Its been about a month or two and my bump was showing a lot more. My feet we swollen and my face got a little chubbier. Today I am taking my dad to go get an ultrasound and see the baby. He and mom had finally gotten divorced even though it had been messy and he had just got engaged with Cameron. Me and him have been bonding a lot more and we have gotten really close.

I decorated my room with a crib, dad forced me. We out it near the window of my room and I added all the stuffed animals and toys in it. We put her clothes on a baby dresser and some more toys on a book shelf. I was getting more excited to have this baby girl.

I still haven't figured out a name for her though. Everyone keeps asking me what I want to name her but I don't know. I want it to be unique and have a special meaning to it.

At the moment I had just finished getting ready for dad to pick me up. I was wearing a baby yellow sundress with some flip flops. I decided to dress comfortable and easy and this what the option was. 

I put my hair in double French braids and applied light makeup.

I was so excited to see my baby girl.

The sound of honking grabbed my attention and I quickly ran outside. I hopped in my dads truck and buckled my seat belt. He started to drive and we started to talk.

"so how are you doing?" He asks me.  

I smile at him, " I am doing really good, things are finally going my way." He looks at me with a smile as well after listening to my words.

"What do you mean by that?" He questioned while keeping his eyes on the road.

" Well for starters getting closer with you, having this baby girl in me, the boy I have a crush on likes me back, I have friends now, I had started therapy which has been going good, nothing bad has happened." I tell him filled with hope and cheerfulness.

"That is good." he lets out.

He looks in the mirror and slightly tenses up but tries to hide it. I look behind me to just see a random car driving behind us. Nothing to worry about, Right?

"Do you know what you're going to name her?" He asks and I let out a soft sigh, "No, I want to give her a meaningful unique name and I just don't know."

"There is Clarity which would be after Claire when helping but I had realized that she is not that good of a person. Then there is Liv after Oliver but I just don't know I want something more." I rant to him and he just nods his head telling me he is listening.

"What happen with Claire." He asks ready for the tea.

"So I like Atlas and have been liking him for almost the whole time I have known him, then she comes in and tells me she likes him and that I can't like him cause that is against girl code and she used her coming to court as manipulation trick." I take a breath, " Well then she got mad at me after finding out that he liked me and not her and told her to fuck off. She ends up calling me a whore and a backstabbing bitch and then told me to kill myself and how gross I was." I ranted.

His face was filled with anger, " Did you at least beat that bitch up?" He asks and I laugh at him.

"Lola did that for me." I tell in between chuckles, "good." Dad said which got me laughing more.

Dad stopped at a red light and turned to me, "You're not a whore or a bitch, you liked him first I mean everyone saw that you liked him so if anything she is the backstabbing bitch. She doesn't deserve a person like you Ivy. You deserve the world not a bitch."  He says, the last line he said had got me laughing. The light turned green and he was starting to drive again but the all the sudden the world went upside down and everything went dark.