Love Beyond Chapters.

There's No Way.

Inspired by one of my fav Lauv songs; There's No Way (feat. Julia Michaels)

Y/N's P.O.V

It was too unexpected, yet I was too confused why did these things happens and I was messed up.

Ang daming nangyari sa maikling panahong lumipas. Still stucked in the middle of this situation between; "Did I deserve this and Do I need to be here again?"

From the past few heartbreaks that I have in the past few months and even years? Love is a bullshit to my all over again after all of those happenings. It's either na sila yung nagsawa or ako na din mismo yung nang-iwan.

But why do I on falling to everyone again? After the break up atleast a month or a year maaattach ulit ako kahit ayaw ko na?

Am I just bored or what? Medyo nakakapagod na.

Hanging out with other girls is too tiring, traumatizing and yet a foolish thing that I keep on going. Nasa genes ko ba talagang maging malandi? I have actually no reason why am I this sa totoo lang.

But I'm not a bitch, actually nababasted lang talaga ako't wala pang napapasukang relasyon dahil wala talagang magkakagusto sa'kin...

...oh, I almost have.

Pero ako mismo ang umayaw.

On that time it happens, yun yung moment na ayaw ko na talagang kumilala ng kung sino-sino at magkaroon ng attachment kaagad-agad.

Iisa lang kasi talaga yung taong minahal ko nang seryoso at di ko na ikekwento king kanino but as of now, pati sya napagsawaan ko na'rin kaagad.

Ang hirap maghintay sa taong alam mong magulo sayo at sa magiging yugto mg buhay mo. Nakakapagod nanh humintay sa wala't mag-isip ng mga sagot sa mga tanong na napakahirap sagutin.

Ganun na lang din siguro ako napagod. Sa iisang taong ngayon ko lang naseryoso, sya pa yung taong sisira ng buong pagkatao't paniniwala ko sa pag-ibig.

But look what I have again? Staring to someone that I was getting attached a little bit.

Kinokontrol ko lang pero naguguluhan akong medyo natutuwa sa nangyayari ngayon.

I don't get it but it's actually fun.

Staring to this beautiful angle of her face looking to the unknown, that silk brown long hair, a flawless skin and her energy radiates over me, it's wonderful yet questionable...

...why? Why do hell you did this to me amd why the hell you're doing this?

And why am I even feeling this shit over her today?

It's messing me up not until she move her head around and stares to me... ISN'T EVEN MEANT?

Our eyes interlocked, in both embarrassment and confusions but still we ended up with a smile and a chuckle because of this overwhelming feeling.

Napailing ako't napakamot sa ulo. Tangina ano yun?

That look that she gave messed me up worst. It messed my sanity and my mind...

...still on the verge of falling in love again.

Inalis ko na yung tingin ko sakanya't lumingon pabalik sa bintana, nag-iisip kung anong klaseng katangahan nanaman yung maaari kong gawin pag nagtagal pa 'to sa'kin.

I even didn't know why did I fell... But how am I gonna tell and even feel correctly that I've already fallen?

Did I really deserve this? Do I need to be in this situation again?

I have no answers but she... She will ne the whole hint and a probable answer if things will follow to us.

I sighed but a hand suddenly held my arms that makes my whole wellbeing shocked.