The Unwanted Marriage

TUM - 20

As I entered the meeting hall nakita ko na maraming napatingin samin, I saw a lot of woman gawking at my husband's side view. They're all pretty. I glared at Joshua before seating on my designated seat.

Did he hired those pretty girls?!

I frowned while looking in the north. I saw in my  peripheral vision that Joshua is looking at me. He stretched his hand para akbayan ako. "What's wrong? Bakit nakasimangot ka na naman?"

It irritates me napapansin kong nakatingin ang ibang babae sa asawa ko. Feeling ko sasabog ang dibdib ko sa galit. "Don't talk to me." His eyes widened. "W-What?"

Umusog ako ng kaunti since we're seating at the large leather sofa at the back. Tinanggal ko rin ang pag kakaakbay niya sakin at tumitig nalang sa lalaking nag sasalita sa harapan namin.

"Bea. What's wrong this time?" Joshua mumbled dahil baka ayaw niyang makasagabal sa meeting. "Tell me. Why are you angry?" Umusog din siya sa kaunti para tumabi sa'kin.

I glared on him at tinuro ang mga babaeng nakatingin samin. I saw them gasped at napatingin nalang sila sa malayo. "Did you hired those girls?" I asked him while gritting my teeth.

"Not me. The HR did. What's with them?" I want to hid my anger but I really can't! I want to tell him all of my emotions and angers right now. Because I believe na pag tinago ko lang ang galit ko ay mag sisimula na naman 'to ng away naming dalawa.

My breathe becomes more heavy and I know he already knows what's happening to me. We've been married for almost a year. "Bea calm down, we don't want arguments right? Tell me please.." He held my right hand and start to caresses it.

"I'm so angry right now." My chest tightened and I want to cry. I clenched my hands into him as I keep biting my lower lip to maintain my poise. Ayokong nakikita nila akong umiiyak.

Everytime na may tao akong nakikita na tumitingin sa pag mamay-ari ko ay agad na kumukulo ang dugo ko sa inis. My chest clenching on its own and my eyes started to burn and I feel like I wanted to cry.

I know this is about my problem a long time ago. But jealousy always killing me inside. The possessive me is still here inside me. I really hates it. I can hurt everyone just because of my attitude that's why I want to limit it as far as I can.

Joshua let me leaned my head on his shoulder my tears flows down when I heard him sang silently again. I can't help my self but cry everytime I'm angry. That's why I'm thankful that I married a man like him.

He is so gentle and caring kahit na inaaway ko siya. Lagi niya nalang akong iniintindi kahit na masama ang ugali ko. Hindi niya ako sinasagot pag nag i-ingay ako sa umaga. Lagi niya akong hinahayaan na magalit sa kanya and after that he will comfort me by asking me what I want. What he should do to lessen my anger.

Just like now. "What should I do?" I shook my head and wiped my tears away may other people see me as an over acting woman. But this is what I feel. Ayoko sa lahat yung naagawan ako.

"J-Just.." Joshua hugged me. "It's okay to cry, don't stop it." Buti nalang ay nasa pinakadulo kami nakaupo. Their meeting hall is like a cine theater style kaya kahit na mag iiyak ako rito ay hindi naman nila makikita.

I felt his lips kissed my head before leaning into that. "Kahit saan ka magalit, my shoulder so is always for you, kahit saan ka pa umiyak, I'm here on your side. No need to be scared to make a mistake with me, I understand what you feel bea,"

I suddenly remembered that my husband is also a psychologist. He understand everything about me. All of my flaws. But everything in him it always makes my nerves angry. That's why I'm so unfair for him.

I want to change myself for him.

I held his right cheeks and kissed his left cheek. I saw in the dim light his eyes widen. Naramdaman ko rin ang kamay niya na nakahawak sa pisngi ko pero bigla niya 'yong tinanggal ng biglang mag bukas ang ilaw.

"A-Ahem." I chuckled when I saw him blushing!

Joshua you're really cute. Blushing in front of his wife?!

"Sir. Joshua what can you say about the report?" The doctor in front of us asked him. Hindi nga ata nakikinig si Joshua sa kanila.

He looked at my side and I shrugged my shoulder. "I-It's good." The doctors blinked a lot of times while looking at my husband.

Kadalasan pag ganito ay marami siyang sinasabi. He always let out his opinions pero ngayon yun lang ang nasabi niya sa mga kasamahan niya. "It's good.. No need to revise it."

The reporter is still too stunned to speak. He scratches his nape and smiled at Joshua. "O-Okay doc. Thank you." I heard everyone mumbled.

Omg! Ngayon lang hindi nag pa revise si doc! What's with him lately?!

No need to revise? Wow. What's happening to him?

Si doc Joshua ba 'yan? Hindi ba' yan nasapian ng kung sino jan?

Sino yung kasama niya?

I heard that's his wife

Wife?! Crush ko pa naman si Sir. Joshua?! I didn't know that he is already married! Sayang naman kaming dalawa.

I glanced at that girl. Her eyes widened nang mag tama ang tingin naming dalawa. Nag mamadali niyang kinuha ang gamit niya at lumipat ng upuan kasama ang mga kaibigan niya.

Crushing on him? Baka gusto niyang siya ang durugin ko.

"Okay meeting adjourned, thank you for today ladies and gentlemen. You can go now." Joshua said.

Agad na silang nag si-alisan at kaming dalawa nalang ang naiwan. Napatawa ako ng mahina at tumingin sa kanya. "What was that Joshua?" I laughed at nakatunganga parin siya.

"I.. I don't know." He touched his chest and looked at me. "You suddenly kissed me that's why my brain suddenly blackout." He released a sweet giggled and pinch my nose.

"You. You're always stubborn bea."

"I kno—" Hindi ko na tuloy ang sasabihin ko he suddenly cupped my cheeks and kissed my lips.

My lips..

My lips..

My lips..

MY LIPS?!

MY FIRST KISS!

"Let's go now. Your husband is hungry." Now. I'm the one who is too stunned to speak. He grabbed my hands at sabay na kaming lumabas.