Where Am I?

Chapter 19: Sakura weds Nakamura

I reach the Golden Park and start searching her. She was under a maple tree and seemed like she is waiting for me eagerly though may be not. I go near her. "So you have come?" She smiles. "No I have not come yet.." I tell her with a pale face. "Don't spoil your mood..! I wanted to ask you about this from past few years.. if you don't mind I would like to ask today.. " ... "Yes.. and what is it can you tell me please?" I plead. She kneels down and brings her hand forward. "Will you marry me?" She asks. I was once shocked to the core as I only had feelings for her as a friend. By God's grace there were really less people in the park. On one side, I didn't want to tell a 'yes' and on the other side I didn't want to tell a 'no' such was my condition but unfortunately I had to say either 'yes' or 'no'. But at last I finally had my decision. "I'm really sorry Sakura but.. you know that we are just friends and there is nothing more than that in between us.. so I'm telling no.. " I tell her politely. "Even I knew that you wouldn't love me.. but later on I felt that you have started loving me.. so.. I really wanted to know... that.. you really don't love me? Tell me the truth.. " She asks with her eyes filled tears. I immediately answer "Iam once again sorry for that.. but its a no.. you know.. Iam not prepared for such things and I don't even feel I can ever be prepared for a marriage in the future too.. so... I hope you can understand me.. I'm really sorry dear.." I apologize her with a cracking voice. The very next moment there was just silence and she broke down into tears and left from here without uttering a word. I felt really bad.
I reach my home from Golden Park. "Hey, dear, where is Sakura. She should have been with you right now.. right?" my mom asks me. "What? She hasn't returned to home yet?" I ask nervously. "Yes, she hasn't. What happened dear?" She asks me. "Actually... uh.. she had left from there alone and I actually don't know about her whereabouts mom.. " I answer her. "Did you both have a fight?" She asks. "No.. no.. not at all.." I answer in a stuttering manner. "Why are you stuttering so much? Nakamura.. what's that you're hiding from me? Tell me the truth please.. is she good right? " she asks me a lot of questions. At last I was about to tell her the truth when I hear a voice behind me. "Iam here.. ". I turn back to see Sakura standing there with no expressions on her face just blank. She goes directly to her room without even uttering a word as before. My mom starts staring at me furiously. By looking at her rage, I already had a thought that she will bang me to the floor. "You know I won't tolerate if you have done anything to her.. did you scold her? Shout her?" She asks. "MOM!!! I have not lost my senses to do such things... why would I do that? You know me right?" I tell her. "Then whats the reason behind this..?? She herself???? You mean like that?" She asks. "Nooo.... mom..... listen.. just believe me there is nothing.. nothing has happened! Just be calm!" I request her. "OK! But later on if I get to understand that you have done something.. I will not spare you! Remember that!" She says in a high tone. "OK mom!" I tell and the next moment I flee away from there to Sakura's room. I knock the door. "Who is it??" She asks. "Um.. I'm.. Naka...." "Go away! However you may have many works.. right?" She asks. "No.. but I didn't say that we are enemies.. I had just said that we are good friends.. do you remember that? Then why are you acting like that?!" I was feeling really bad for her. "Look! You will get someone better than me.. please come out.. and in the first place don't cry please..." I tell her. "I have only loved you.. and I really cannot replace my feelings.. forever.. and also then what else do you expect? Laughing? Instead of crying?" She asks. "No... like.. " "Nothing! Just please go away from here at least for today don't bother me" she shouts. I go back to my room. When she wasn't coming out of her room I was really feeling extremely guilty. I remember how caring she was towards me but I never had a clue that she was so attached to me. At a point of time, even I had got attached too much with her but I never knew about that even she was having the same feelings as me so from that day I tried to help her just like a brother and nothing else. We both are just 22 years old right now. But after so many years, today, I get to know that she loves me abundantly. But I went on to say no at that moment because I felt that I cannot keep her happy as she wants me to or that what if one or the other day I lag behind in my responsibilities. What if at some point in the future she gets hurt because of me. I didn't want these things to happen so I had a thought that it would be better to say a no rather than a yes. But now, however she seems to be really hurt because of me.

The next day

In the morning, I get a thought of proposing her the same way and hoping that she may feel better. Finally, I take the decision and it's really ok if she rejects me this time. As I didn't want to leave this matter in this way. I get ready and go out to get a diamond ring. I get the best one and come back home as soon as possible. As she was not even in the state of looking at me how can I even go to speak? So I message her. "Meet me at the Golden Park at the same place in the evening at 5 pm.. hope you come.. I have something for you.. = )" I tell her. But there was no reply.

In the evening,

I get ready and reach there on time. I was shocked as soon as I enter the Golden Park because Sakura was standing under the same maple tree and was looking gorgeous. And she seemed better than before. I don't know why but again I have become nervous. I go near her. My body freezes as soon as she looks at me. But she seemed to be very normal and also smiles at me. I start walking towards her, very close to her. I propose her the same way as she had proposed me the other day. For a few seconds we just look at each other. Then she extends her hand forward to me. I really couldn't believe that she accepted me so easily. She hugs me with full of happiness and joy. "I'm really sorry for whatever I have done before.. please forgive me" I apologize. "Can't you see how happy I am? Doesn't it mean that I have already forgiven you..?" She tells. "If it is true then I am really grateful to you.. love you!".. "love you too!! At last you have got some sense" she smiles. "Yeah yeah... ".. We go to home and I tell my mom about this she was very happy.

The next month,

I get married to Sakura in greatest way possible. This day, She and I were very happy. My mom had given all her efforts to make this occasion even more better. Haruki was more interested to eat the food than even wishing us. But whatever it is all of them have enhanced my life. From now on, I cannot even think of living without them.
I have got blessings in the form of my mom, an honest best friend, sweet and kind soul mate, a good job, and my adventurous past. That's all I wanted.

~THE END~
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