Dorm 308

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I knew it was Harry, but I don't know what made me stay with him. I should be mad at what he said a while ago but here I am cuddling with him. I suddenly felt like he is just using me when girls reject him, which is unusual, or when he is sad and just want someone to cuddle with. I wanted to back away at the idea. Harry wanting me just because he can't find someone. I'm not his sideline girl when he doesn't have one. I should not let him do that to me because I know he will not take me seriously.

I'm gonna be honest that the past few weeks of being with him, even if we just walk past each other and command each other things, I feel the need to see him everyday. I know I keep saying I have no feelings for him but maybe infatuation. I like seeing him or hear him talk.

Maybe that's what made me stay with him right now, because I kinda like being with him and the warmth he gives physically and emotionally but I don't want to be the girl he uses when he feels alone and just leave me alone when he finds another girl to be with.

That routine has been going on for almost a month now, and I hate myself because I'm letting him make me feel like s.hit. One time, last week, it was late at night and he got home from some party and instead of sleeping in his big a.ss bed he squeezed himself with me in the couch. There are also times when he would brought home foods like, Chinese take out or doughnuts. He sometimes ask me if I was okay when I'm loaded with schoolworks, which was so nice of him. He can really be sweet and thoughtful but reality bites, he's barely like that and I think it will never happen again.

I opened my eyes and lift my head to see his face. He has a content expression and he securely draped his arms on my waist. I like seeing him calm, I always see him angry or stressed. He looked like a carefree normal teenager when he looks like this.

I don't know what Harry has in mind all the time that he's like a light switch to me; on and off and repeat.

Though I should be mad at him for what he had said during the car conversation, I can't stay mad at people, I can't stay mad at him. Even if I wanted to so bad.

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When I woke up, Harry was already gone in bed. I stretched my arms out and sat up from the bed, I saw a note placed on top of the side table.

Chastity,

Sorry that you woke up without me, I have classes and it starts at 7am today so I had to leave early.

- Harry xx

PS, Go home early today, if ever you have plans. I have something to tell you later. 5pm.

PSS, I made breakfast in the kitchen

PSSS, Post your weekly schedule at my desk. I'm serious.

A smirk was formed on my lips when I read Harry's note. He made breakfast, how unusual, and he's forcing me to post my weekly schedule at his desk. I rolled my eyes at my silly and foolish smirk from Harry's letter and put it down back at the side table. Stop Chastity you sound like a pathetic girl smiling when a guy is already playing with you. Is Harry playing with me?

I had a goodnight sleep, maybe because I slept in a comfortable bed not a leather couch or maybe because I fell asleep with Harry's arms secured around me.

I ate the breakfast Harry made and it was okay. Its not bad but its also not the best like a high class breakfast buffet. I made my way to the bathroom and I have forty five minutes left till my class starts at nine. I'll be forever grateful that my class starts at nine all week, and my class dismissal is at four or five pm.

Once I was prepared, I left the dormitory making sure that the place is securely locked before heading down the first floor and to my academic building.