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Chapter 10:

"Why did you two Break up?" Tanong ni Cianna sa akin. Kami kami nila along with Rainne. "You both were fine a few days ago."

"I don't know Cianna. He just did it and he didn't even explain, hindi ko rin alam kung saan ba ako nagkulang o kung saan man ako nagkamali sa aming dalawa." Naiiyak kong sambit kay Cianna habang pinupunasan ang luha sa aking mga mata. It all happened so fast, Lucas said he'll try to talk to Nikolai as well, Silvestre too. While here I am, being helpless. I still remember it, it happened last night after my visit on Nikolai's place during their family dinner. I still can't believe he cheated. I don't really want to believe it.

[ Niko: *Francis Nikolai Ortega cleared his nickname*
Nikolai: *Francis Nikolai Ortega cleared your nickname*
Xerena: Niko why did you do that. May mali ba akong nagawa?
Nikolai: Hmm?
Xerena: If we have a problem Niko, please tell me.🙁
Xerena: You're hurting me so much.
Nikolai: You broke up with me already, didn't you? It's for your own good.
Xerena: what? Bakit?
Xerena: Just explain it to me, please?
Nikolai: I don't know.
Xerena: Bakit.
Nikolai: I don't know. We're done after all.
Xerena: let's talk first, Nikolai!
Nikolai: *seen* ]

"May mali ba sa akin?" Tanong ko sa kanilang tatlo habang naiiyak. Hindi ko mapigilan ang aking luha sa totoo lang. "miss ko na sya...Rainne...Cianna, I miss him so fucking much and him suddenly doing this just fucking hurts!" Naiiyak kong sigaw sa kanila at napayakap na lang ako kay Cleo habang inaalo ako nang dalawa. "He was the first guy I've loved...My entire life. And he knew things like fights is something I want to fix immediately pero sa huli ginawan nya ako nang ganyan nang walang paliwanag. Ang sakit...It hurts so much but in the end I still want him, but I know I couldn't have him back, it just feels wrong."

"Wala namang mali sayo Xerena...it's...It will pass soon. Baka it's just his problem, not yours di ba?" Saad ni Rainne sa akin habang dahan dahan na sinusuklay ang aking buhok. My first male love did this, and kahit nasaktan na ako, gusto ko parin syang bumalik. I was never like this with Sophia. Maybe he really was different. "He cheated. And it's not your problem na hindi naman sya marunong makuntento sa isa."

"Rainne is right. It's not your fault that he wasn't contented. What you did to understand him in the past was more than enough but he still cheated nevertheless." Dagdag ni Cianna sa sinabi sa akin ni Rainne. "Maybe he just can't be a better person for you or even himself. It's not your fault, Xerena."

I sobbed softly in their arms habang nakikinig ako sa kanila. "Maybe you're right. Pero ang sakit parin talaga...I genuinely loved him tapos ganito? Parang wala lang? Paano naman ako? Paano naman yung dating kami?" I cried.

It was too much for me to handle, knowing na I tried my best to be a good and understanding girlfriend. I'm not the best but I'm definitely not the worst girlfriend to have around. I should've stayed single. I started to regret my decisions and sacrifices just for one guy. "Thank you for listening to me...Both of you." Bulong ko sa kanilang dalawa habang pinupunasan ang aking luha. "I'm just glad na nandito kayo para makinig sa rants ko about my relationship. Buti hindi kayo naiirita sa akin."

"Why would we be irritated with you eh we understand your situation naman." Bulong ni Rainne sa akin. I'm grateful for these two, really.

It was one of my worst heartbreaks, I never cried as much as I did with Sophia in the past. We only cried when we finally said our goodbyes with each other, nothing more than that. "I don't believe in love anymore." Bulong ko sa aking sarili.

"Why? Love is beautiful." Dagdag ni Cianna sa aking sinabi.

"Because your love with Syg is there and it's true. But for me, maybe the thing called romance is dead. I have no hopes for that. It failed me time and time again and maybe oras na para sukuan ko na ito." Sambit ko sa kanila as I finally calmed down and stopped crying like crazy. "Maybe I'd love again if they finally prove that they actually love me, and not just some stupid act like what Nikolai did. I trusted his words and promises but he failed me. He disappointed me when he said he wouldn't."