Saranghae | Sehun & Leo Fanfic #Wattys2015

Chapter 30

Saranghae
Chapter 30
Cats&Dogs

I sat on the edge of the bed when I got the notification. The call me baby video. I sighed and leant back into the blankets. I watched Sehun's face. I watched him dance and be himself. He's going to be gone now.

I sighed and pulled my arm over my eyes. I sniffled and wiped my eyes. I sent him a text. I forced a smile.

Me: Leather jackets? You look cute.

I only sent that message to tease him, to lift my own down spirits. I can't lift it though. I sighed as my eyes watered.

Oppa<3: not cute. Sexy.

I smiled at the text.

Me: keep telling yourself that.

I cried that night.

When we came back from our last Japan concert I got a call. When I took a look at the collar ID, I was worried. I sighed and answered.

"Dad?" I asked. I walked into the hall. I pulled my hair back. It was slightly cooled and wet from sweat. I heard him sigh on the other end.

"Did you just get out of a concert?" He asked. I leant against the wall.

"Yeah, I did." I answered. I crossed my arms over my chest. I yawned.

"Alright. I'll make this short then. Remember what I told you? With my support you have to work harder?" He asked and I sighed and nodded to myself.

"Yeah. " I said with a sigh.

"I talked to your manager. We signed you up to learn Piano and Guitar. " he said and I slunched back. I don't have time for that, I barely have time for my studies.

"Are you serious?" I asked with a sigh.

"Of course I am. Its only an hour every other day. " he said and I nodded to myself.

"Its still a lot. I have other things. " I said. "Do you even know how busy I am already?" I asked him in return. "Its concerts, events, interviews. I have classes too. This is too much. " I said.

"You'll have time. " he said and I sighed again. "Just be happy, I was going to sign you up for acting classes as well. You're lucky your manager convinced me out of it. " he said.

"I'm not acting." I said.

"Do you want to get anywhere with your life?" He asked and I sighed.
"I think being an idol is more than satisfactory." I answered.

He muttered something I couldn't hear. "Just make sure you attend the lessons." He said and I hung up on him. He doesn't understand how much I already go through.

I brought my arms down angrily. I can't do this. I brought my hand through my hair and sighed. "Piano? Guitar?" I asked myself and went back into the room. I don't think I can keep up as it is.

"Jess," Hee-Young tried to get my focus. I ignored her and grabbed a towel and clothes. I went to the shower. "What's her problem?" I heard her ask before I slammed the door shut.

I didn't feel like really talking to anyone. When we went out to dinner I sat next to Ki. She knew that I wasnt feeling myself and she wouldn't press me into anything. Home was only a day away.

When we got back to the hotel room I went out to the balcony. I hung my arms loosely on the railing. A sigh escaping into the night air. Its only going to get harder from here and I know that.

I leant my forehead on my arms. Why is it so hard?

How am I going to last without seeing him? I'm already frustrated as it is. Tears slipped from my eyes and rolled down my cheeks. I wiped at my face angrily.