Saranghae | Sehun & Leo Fanfic #Wattys2015

Chapter 46

Saranghae
Chapter 46
I'll miss you.
Jessie's POV

I been staying at a hotel for a couple of days now. Cube has been settling my contract. I met with them the day I came back. They were nice and told me everything that was going to happen. They had to get rid of my phone.

I was fine with it. That life was over. I was getting a lot of hate, like expected. People thought I was immature, that I was a ruiner. That they would forever hate me. I hated myself for this. I really did.

My hands were shaking. I was supposed to go to the dorm for the last time today. To collect the things I need immediately. The rest would be packed by the movers. I was going to be moved to another apartment that the guy that I'm supposed to be in a coed duo with, lived in also.

Too many things happening at once. I told Leo, I had to go alone for this. All of Vixx wanted to go, to protect me. I have been by them since I got back. Hyuk whined when I told him to stay. He thought the guys would yell at me. I'm sure they'll be here today. I don't want to see Sehun.

I got out of the cab and pulled the crutches out. I limped to the door. I noticed all of their cars. They are here. I sighed and went inside. I took small slow steps. I wanted to drag this out as long as I could, I don't want to end up seeing them. To cry.

My heart was pounding in my chest. I got to the door. They took my key, so I stood in front of it. I heard the low murmur of voices on the other side. I dont want to go in.

I kept my eyes down and rose my hand shakily. I knocked slowly and stepped back. I heard shuffling on the other side. The door opened. I looked up to see Mi-Ok. She had hate, pure hate in her eyes.

"I'm here to get some stuff. " I said in a soft whisper, she stepped aside to let me in. She had to. I stumbled in, I kept my eyes down. I could feel all their eyes on me. Every single one. I almost made it to the hallway.

"You were just planning to leave us?" I heard Hi-Sook's voice crack. I froze and my back went stiff. My hands were trembling. I kept my eyes straight.

"I didn't plan this. " I said firmly through the silence and limped into the room. I walked in to see Ki sitting at the edge of my bed. She looked up, she had tears in her eyes.

"Do you really have to go?" She asked. I dropped my eyes and nodded. I heard her get up and I felt her pull. I was in her arms and the crutches fell to the ground. She hugged me tightly.

"I'm going to miss you. " she whispered quietly. I placed my hand on her back as tears burned the rim of my eyes.

"I'm going to miss you too. " I whispered back. "I'm sorry. " I told her. "I'm sorry. " I whispered again and again. I started crying. My sobs were loud enough to be heard from the other room, but I didn't care. I'm losing my friends, my family.

She pulled away and placed her hands on my arms. "I know, I know, you didn't have any say in this, did you?" She asked and I nodded.

"It was either move back to America or go to Cube. They were going to cancel my contract with SM regardless. " I told her softly. She pulled my hair out of my eyes.

"Its okay, " she whispered. "We'll always be friends. " she said sadly. "Cube will probably treat you better anyway. " she said and I cried harder.

"Its okay." I heard another voice. I turned to see Hee-Young and Yvonne. They must have been listening in, they had understanding pressed into their features.

Yvonne came over and pulled me into a hug. "I'm going to miss you." She said softly in English. I remember when I first met her. She woke up from a nap. I hugged onto her tighter. I closed my eyes. "We'll get in touch... Somehow." She added and I nodded. I sniffled and pulled away. She was crying.

"I'll be here for you, just know that. " I told her quietly. She nodded and I turned to Hee-Young. She was crying too.

"Why do you have to go?" She cried. She pulled me into a hug, and I held on tight. I'm losing all of them. My heart cracked.

"I'm sorry, I'm still living in Seoul, remember that. " I told her. I buried my face into her hair. I squeezed my eyes shut.

"Whose going to troll with me?" She cried and I opened my eyes. I met a pair of eyes staring at me. Sehun's eyes were the ones that locked onto mine. He had dark circles under his eyes, his hair was a mess and his skin paler than usual.

I pulled away. The girls looked at him and then to me. Ki went over to me and touched my shoulder. I looked to her.

"Listen to him, okay?" She asked me and I nodded shakily. They left the room and Sehun stepped to the side to let them out.

He kept his eyes down as he closed the door. He softly closed it with a click. He looked up. "I'm sorry. " he said softly. I kept my eyes down.

"Why did you do it?" I asked quietly.

"I- I didn't mean for any of that to happen. " he said and he sighed. "She played me. " he said softly. "I didn't know she was going to kiss me until it happened. She did it when she knew you were coming over. She wanted you out of the preformance. " he said and my heart stumbled.

I looked up.

"What?" I asked.

"She kissed me to hurt you. I would never cheat on you like that. I would never cheat." he said. He brought his eyes up and met mine. "I'm sorry. " he said and I nodded shakily. I been hating him all this time because of something like that?

I dropped my eyes. It hurt to say it, but I had to. "We- uh- should stay the way we are now." I told him. "It changes nothing now, I'm leaving SM, its better we have no connection at all. " I told him as my voice cracked.

My heart really did shatter when I saw his eyes. How pained they looked. He came over and ignored my protests. I held my hands out trying to stop him. I knew I couldnt, I didnt want to stop him. He pulled me into his arms, I gasped and my cheek pressed against his chest.

If this had to be the last time I would be in his arms... I'm not going to push him away...

I could listen to his heart beat slow once I touched him. I could hear my own vibrating through my body.

"Are you really going to give us up?" He questioned, his voice cracking beyond repair. He pressed his face into the crook of my neck. I could feel him shaking.

He was crying.

I took everything in. I took the way he smelled, the way he held me. How he felt. Everything would be locked in my mind. If this is goodbye, this is goodbye, I will make everything of it.

"I have to." I said shakily. He held me, my arms laid limp as I cried again. I never stopped crying.