The Hunt: A Jesperi Kotkaniemi Fanfiction

18. Sascha

"I want you so bad!"

I know what he means.

The attraction seems a thousand times stronger. My gaze is glued to his mouth, to the sensual curve of his lower lip. I miss kissing him. Distance. I reminded myself, I need to back away, steel myself against his palpable sex appeal and-my butt bumps the wall. Crap. Nowhere to go. No way to run from the awareness incinerating all the oxygen around us.

"Kiss me." His raspy command is barely audible over the pounding of my heart.

His head bends, his mouth inches from mine. I'm paralyzed, I couldn't move. By the beard growth shadowing his jaw and the way his tongue darts out to moisten his top lip. One kiss wouldn't be the end of the world, right?

He lifts his hand to my face, and rough fingertips skim my cheek. I shivered.

"Kiss me Sascha," he murmurs my name, and my control snaps.

I grab the back of his head and bring his mouth to mine, kissing him as if it's the only thing that keeps me alive. When he groans against my lips, I feel the strangled sound down south. Jezz! I can't breathe. Can't concentrate on anything but his hungry tongue in my mouth and the rapid beating of my heart.

He reaches down and cups my ass, pressing my lower body to his and rotating his hips.

"I've been fantasizing about this for so damn long, you don't even know!" His agonized whisper heats my neck before his mouth latches on, sucking hard enough to make me moan.

Jesperi kisses a path back to my lips, teases the seam with his tongue before plunging inside again. I'm aching for him and he knows it.

But then... He breaks the kiss and stares into my eyes, while his hand slowly lets me go, his expression is so tortured you'd think he'd been water-boarded for weeks.

"No, goddamn it," he croaks. "This wasn't what I wanted."

"I'm s-sorry, w-what?" I'm stuttering, still dazed from those mind-melting kisses.

"I just wanted a kiss. Not a hook-up." He draws a deep breath. "I meant what I said. I just want to talk, like actually talk about us."

"Jesperi..." I trail off warily, trying to remove the haze I felt from kissing him.

"I want to talk, like for real." He said slowly. And right before I can react, he then immediately supplied. "Tomorrow. Is that alright? I'll come pick you up."

"Don't you have a practice game?"

"I have but, we'll talk right after." He answered. "Unblock me. Please! For fuck's sake Sascha! You can never do that again. No more running from now on."

I guess that would be...
There's no more running anymore, because how can I possibly do that when we share the same zip code now!

I sighed, finally accepting the defeat.

"I'll do it later, just get out of here now before someone might caught us."

"Do it now." He ordered. "I won't leave if you won't do it now."

I rolled my eyes and fished my phone out of my pocket. Instead of doing it myself, I handed my phone to him and let him unblock himself.

Later on, the both of us finally decided to go back to the party. I actually don't have plans on keeping my word and was just planning to stay inside my room here in the house but Jesperi is annoying the heck out of me by texting and calling threatening me that he'll come back inside if I don't go out and enjoy the party.

So I don't have any choice but to show up and just be there where he can see me.

He's making me uncomfortable. Way too uncomfortable when he is around, I hate this version of him to be honest. I mean, it's my fault why the sweet and goofy Kk is out and the mean and scary him is his mood at the moment.

For sure he wants a serious relationship out of this, I can really tell. But I don't want anything of it yet. My heart and my mind isn't ready, and at the same time another hook up is not included on the list as well. I just want to be with myself this time, especially now that I am here in Raleigh and starting a new chapter. Having a man is the least of my priorities.

I sighed, I'll just figure and clarify these all out tomorrow. Hope he understands it this time.