The Hunt: A Jesperi Kotkaniemi Fanfiction

28. Sascha

After the game, I bid goodbye to my friends. I was supposed to leave the arena with them but my sister Tina insisted to drive her home since the team are still going for a quick drink to celebrate the win tonight so Valter won't be able to drive her home yet.

I decided to wait on the parking lot and wait for Tina. Luckily she parked the car just around the arena and not in the exclusive parking lots for players and staffs. Unfortunately, I don't have her keys so instead I just decided to seat in front of the car fish my phone out, wear my headphones and kill time scrolling through Tiktok.

I know for a fact that Tina will surely took her sweet time! So I'll surely wait here for a bad amount of time. Yes, bad! Because I don't have that much of a patience.

Approximately fifteen minutes passed, a car parked across from Tina's car unlocks which caught my attention. As I look up, the car headlights lit up on high beam my eyes hurt.

Oh what a jerk!

It stayed that way since the owner was still busy loading some stuff at the backseat and then it hit me... Shit! Is that Jesperi's car? I was too stunned to move not even a tiny bit.

When the man finally emerged from the back of his car, my whole world spins. It is really Jesperi! I want to run, I want to hide-- but my body doesn't cooperate. I was just there staring at the man blinking like a goddamn idiot unable to move.

I got scared that he'll approach me, but even just a quick single glance on my way he didn't do it. He just completely ignored me. I won't say that he didn't noticed or saw me, I know that he did! I'm just literally seating across from his car few meters away and I am the only person out here. And I won't say that he did not recognized me, I still look like me. Although my hair got a bit longer and I also have lose not that much weight due to stress and all the things in between. I am still me!

I sighed, calming my heavy heart. For sure he does see me, but then decided to ignore me.

I heard my heart crack! This was not what I expected Jesperi to act when seeing me. He is always excited to see me! He always smiles like he just won the lottery every time he spots me. But Jesperi was way too different earlier, it is totally not like him.

Maybe it was his twin?

I rolled my eyes realizing that thought, I am way too delusional thinking about that! He only has one brother who lives in Finland, what was I thinking!

While driving back to Tina and Valter's place, I couldn't stop thinking about what happened at the parking lot while my sister blabs about what happened in the game. I just pretended that I am listening, doing the casual nods and one word response just for respect.

Not until she started mentioning Jesperi and talk about him meeting Sebastian Aho's cousin from Helsinki who is also a hockey player and wanting to take us to dinner because we are all Finnish. My anger issues elevated and I wanted to scream at her just to shut her up, but instead I just decided to be silent gripping the steering wheel harder than it should. Because as much as I wanted to speed up as well, I can't risk Tina's safety. Because I am actually almost wanting to crash this car down.

"Have you seen him?"

"Who?" I ask trying to sound calm.

"Jesperi."

"No, I didn't." I lied.

"Well that is surprising, he parked his car across from mine."

"Maybe he already left when I arrived." I responded.

When we arrive, I immediately excused myself heading to my own room at the house making up some paperworks at school as an excuse to get rid of my sister.

As I closed the door behind me, I immediately throw myself on the bed letting the tears I have been holding in the past few minutes to burst out.

Fuck!

I rolled in bed, rolled and rolled while crying in silence. Yes! I wanted Kk to leave but I just did not expect that it will hurt this much. Feeling like the whole world has crashed down all over you, seeing the person you love ignoring you. Seeing the person you love but not having them back anymore.

I grabbed my phone, looking at Kk's number. I am way too tempted to call him, but I am scared that he'll ignore me again or that he'll tell me that he doesn't want me back anymore.

"Urghh!!" I groaned throwing the phone away and wallow in tears again.

It fucking hurts! I don't know if I can handle it.