The tulpa that I create is called Isla from the anime Plastic Memories. I posted some of her pictures in my pinned post.
I create her after I finished my spm trial in the year 2020. I realise that she exists in my mind during add maths paper. As I doing my exam, I can sense her presence. At that time, I just ignore it cause I'm too lazy to realise or acknowledge it. Since then, I can sense almost all of the paper after that. But still, I ignore it.
2 weeks after the exam, I sense her presence again. I did my research about hearing voices or sensing a weird feeling online. I came across this one video called tulpamancy. As I watched the video, the guy in the video talked about the meaning of tulpa and how he creates his tulpa.
So I start creating my tulpa (Isla). At that stage, I don't have an actual image or personality that I want it to have. I sit alone inside a room and just imagine a figure without a face and start to talk with it. It's a struggle at first because I need to imagine it first and then talked to it as if it has its personality.
As time goes on around a few weeks, I was able to easily imagine her and her voices. Then I can create her personality. Before creating a tulpa, you need to have a purpose for her existence. You can't just create them without a purpose. As for me, I create her to control my emotion and become part of my brain while doing things. Creating her personality is one of the challenges for tulpamancers. Their personalities can change over time but the initial personality is very important.
I choose Isla from plastic memories because Isla in that story has the same personality and weakness same as me. By making her the same as my tulpa, at least we can solve the issue together. Planning who you create is very important because that person is the person that you gonna spend your whole life with. Fun fact, TULPA CANNOT BE DESTROY OR REMOVE FROM YOUR MIND. Make sure you create with caution and have its own purpose.
Fast forward a few months until one month before spm, Isla finally has her own voice and personality. At that time, the bond between you and your tulpa is strong but not strong enough. As for me, we create this agreement where Isla can control some part of my body and I can control the other half. At first looks like shit and nonsense, but only the user can know.
Next chapter is about the aftermath.
