Errors Ahead
Awkward
The next days were so good and what makes it better is that Cassius and I started talking alot too now, we had interactions sa school and would greet each other hindi katulad nung nag daan na kahit magkasalubong kami hindi niya ako pinapansin kahit kumakaway ako. I also made up my mind to focus my feelings on Kyle, because he does not deserve a half-hearted type of love from me.
Abala sa pagluluto ng snacks kasama si Kyle dumating naman si Pennie at Cassius ng sabay. We're just going to have fun today sa bahay. Tumambay kaming lahat sa pool and had barbeque too, good thing the sun is up. While Pennie is having fun already sa may pool ako naman tumutulong sa boyfriend ko. It was bit awkward na nandoon si Cassius but we didn't mind since he's minding his own business too, nilalantakan ang nachos. Sinusubuan naman ako ni Kyle ng pakaunti kaunting karne.
"Kaya ka tumataba eh." Puna ni Cassius.
Sandaling huminto ang mundo ko naalala ang mga sinabe niya sa akin dati.
"Gusto sana kita, kaso ang taba mo"
Wow!!! Just wow, ano ba agwat namin ni Yasmen? Bruh maputi lang siya, mas malaki kaunti ang boobs sa akin at mas halata ang curve niya pero we're both fat!
That line, pinag iinit talaga ang ulo ko tuwing naalala ko. I lost weight the past year just because of that. Nakakahiya naman sa pagmumukha niyang oily at may kakaunting lubak! Arg, for the idk how many times, why do I still like him!
Narinig kong tumikhim si Pennie na nakikinig pala I know what's she's thinking. Kyle looked tense too after hearing that his brows frowned at mukhang tinutuon nalamang ang pansin sa kaniyang nilulutong barbeque.
"Oo nga no, baka lalo akong mawalan ng chance sayo. Nakakahiya naman ampogi mo kasi."
My tone was full of sarcasm kaunti nalang mumurahin ko na tong hayop na ito. But I was regretting after saying that. I also wasn't able to have second thoughts before that came out of my mouth. Have I lost my mind?! My boyfriend was just right beside me.
"She's not fat dude, and ano naman if tataba siya?" Nagsalita na si Kyle na may halong pagkakairita ang boses.
"Wala naman, nagbibiro lang din naman ako." The jerk chuckled.
"Well you've been friends with Isla for years how come you don't know she's insecure with her physical appearance?"
I felt guilty, Kyle knows me well and understands me but here I am liking someone who doesn't even remember my insecurity.
"Sorry Lala." Yun nalamang ang isinagot ni Cassius.
We had an awkward silence but thanks to Pennie medyo gumaan ang atmosphere. Inaya niya nalamang si Cassius na mag swim na at sumundo naman ito.
"Oo nga no, baka lalo akong mawalan ng chance sayo. Nakakahiya naman ampogi mo kasi."
Napalingon ako kay Kyle nang ginaya niya ang tono ko kanina. I shut my eyes hard. Nadatnan ko naman si Kyle nakatingin diretso sa akin hawak hawak padin ang tong.
"Really Isla? Tsk." Umuling iling ito habang asar na nakangiti.
"Kyle that was sarcasam." Pagpapaliwanag ko at nilapitan pa siya.
" Really? We all know may pinag huhugutan yung SARCASAM mo." His voice turned cold.
I hate this! Kyle and I never had an argument or tampuhan and now that this happening it's too awkward. I want this day to end as soon as possible, I don't like the pressure.
The awkwardness toned down a bit after a few minutes dahil nag umpisa na kaming mag karoon ng "fun" but I don't think Kyle is having fun. I can totally feel his stares especially nung nabanggit si Yasmen at sinabe pa ni Cassius na he's still very into her.
Honestly it hurt me because for the past year I was trying so hard for him to notice me, I tried many times to show him I was there beside him and was still supporting him with Yasmen when I had feelings for him. I tried so hard for him to see me but he was too focused for that one girl, and I think that added to the feelings I already had because in the first place his perseverance and patience for Yasmen is what made me like him.
I headed to the kitchen for a while to get drinks when Kyle stood up and followed me.
"So how does it feel? Knowing the guy, you like still likes that girl after a year of you trying hard to make him see you?"
Kyle suddenly spoke while we were making the drinks and I was just speechless.
"I bet it feels so bad, cause I'm in the same page. The girl I like so much who actually is my girlfriend now likes someone and whenever I look into her eyes I knew well she wished I was that guy."
He left with the drinks not letting me say anything. His words hit me hard, kasi walang kahit anong salita ang lalabas mula sa akin. I was too stunned to speak. I feel guilty that everything he just said was absolutely true.
"See the dilemma?" Ate Andra popped out of nowhere halos mapatalon ako sa gulat.
"Better wish this day end any sooner. This is too awkward. "
She poured some juice on her glass then pat my shoulders before going straight to the staircase. I really do wish this awkwardly bad day ends.
Author's note:
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