Wasn't Meant To Be

Chapter 26

Errors Ahead

Jerk

"Hmmmm, I see." I sat beside ate Andra habang nakapatong ang ulo sa may lamesa. Kabadong naghihintay sa maari niyang sabihin matapos suwayin ang sabi niyang wag na muling umamin.

"I don't blame you Isla, kung bakit ba nanatili yang nararamdaman mo para sa gagong yan."

She calmly said at ibinaba ang cellphone ko. She just finished reading our conversation yesterday night and she looks like she's near her limit. I gulped she's pissed more than ever, more than yesterday.

"Who wouldn't be miss leaded by those hirit? My gosh."

Umirap ito habang nakahawak sa kaniyang sentido.

"Sorry." I said in a tiny voice.

"Wag kang mag sorry sa akin, magsorry ka sa sarili mo." She looked me in the eye and turned away.

"Isla, I'm not mad at you. Dito sa gagong ito ako galit, he's taking advantage of your feelings and what's funny you got more balls than him!" She gasped for air and laughed in disbelief.

"I'm really sorry, but I promise to deal with the consequence. I won't regret it." I bravely said.

Mariin kong ipinagdikit ang mga labi at kinunot ang kilay.

"You know wala namang masama sa pagpapakatanga ang masama is yung hindi mona alam kung hangang saan o kelan ka magpapkatanga. Pero mabuti narin ito, I hope you will learn something once the outcome shows up."

Yun ang huli niyang sinabe at umalis na patungong kwarto niya.

Pagkabalik ng Manila agad na naging busy ang schedule ko sa studies and there were lots of activities na kailangan at gustong gawin for this sem, tambak tambak na ang mga ibinigay ng aming mga prof I didin't even had the time to think about Cassius not replying for weeks. Hindi narin ako nagkaroon pa ng chance na makipagchikahan kay Pennie, college is draining to think na first year palang kami or maybe it depends on what university or prof ka under, hmmm.

Ramdam ko na ang pawis na tumutulo sa may noo at likod ko habang naglalakad sa may corridors ng engineering building para magpasa ng activities sa isa sa mga prof ko. Grabe tong building nato ang gugulo ng mga kalalakihan nas tuck ata sa high school timeline nila. "nakapagsalita ang mature na umakto." Natawa ako sa sariling panglalait sa sarili. Malayo palamang tanaw ko na si Cassius na naglalakad kasama ang tropa niya abala sa kanilang mga kwentuhan. *dugdugdug* I held my chest I can feel my damn heart beat!!! "Calm down, calm down, calm down" I kept telling myself ngunit ng magtama man lang ang aming mga mata hanggang sa naglagpas ang aming mga landas di man lang ako binate ng gongong, even his other friends greeted me with a smile at siya? What a freaking JERK!

Umirap ako kahit na alam kong di niya nakita ang aking pagtataray, "Get a hold of yourself Isla." I told myself and went back to my business. Humanda lang siya sa akin mamaya, I don' mind getting embarrassed if magiging blunt nanaman ako sa feelings ko but we have to talk I can't go on like this forever.

Hindi ako nakapag concentrate sa mga sumunod na klase kakaisip kung ano ang gusto kong sabihin kay Cassius kapag kaharap ko na siya mamaya. I almost got in trouble with my Jose Rizal, ang dami naman kasing kaganapan sa buhay niya all along I thought na pag college nako maiwasan ko ang history pero hindi pala I was shocked ng sinabe sa akin ng mga pinsan ko lahat sila dumaan sa subject nato.

Maaga kaming na dismiss kaya naman I took this opportunity to look for Cassius. Wala nga pala akong alam sa class schedule niya! Pero lucky me, I found him under a tree wearing khaki shorts and a polo, ang plain talaga pomorma nito. I saw some girls look to his directions giggling siya naman nakangiting tinatanguan ang mga ito, Cassius isn't that handsome honestly and hindi sa pagmamayabang but they say my looks are far way better than his. Makapal ang kaniyang mga kilay, dark brown na mga mata, tamang tangos ng ilong ang labi niya ay di gaanong mapink, may bakas ng inahit na bigote at ang kaniyang mga pisngi ay may bakas ng tigyawat.

"Cassius we need to talk."

I greeted him just like that when I reached in front of him.

"Ano yun?" He asked with a goofy smile.

"Totoo ba yung sinabe ni Pennie sa akin?"

"Ang alin?" I see he's going to play this card.

"Dont use that tactic on me Cassius alam mo ang tintukoy ko." Masungit kong saad.

"Tyaka minsan sobra na sa hirit at alam mo yun minsan nakaka miss lead ka. Alam ko di maganda mag assume pero paano ako di aasa if ganyan ka?" Dagdag ko. Maini tang ulo ko ngayon and I'm trying hard to calm myself.

"Alam mo usap nalang tayo pag hindi mainit ulo mo." Mayabang na sabi nito. At mukha pang disappointed sa inaakto ko.

I am about to lose my wits here. I hate that kind of line grrr.

"No. Aamin amin ka indirectly tapos chinachat kita di ka man lang mag reply? Anong klaseng trip toh?" I will not lose authority right now.

"Okay, real talk. I did like you, pero alam mo nung tumagal parang mas maganda na ako lang mag isa."

I finally heard the truth.

"Good then were clear now." I coolly said. Although I was hurt I shook off the feelings. Kasi he doesn't deserve it.

"But you still like me right?"

Ang mokong nagtanong pa but, he seemed hopeful.

I showed a smile.

"I'd be lying if I'd say no and honestly, I thought this time something will happen with our relationship. I thought I had a chance."

I chuckled in disbelief and shook my head. I bit my lip and smiled bitterly.

"You know Cassius, it's funny how I'm too straight forward about my feelings to you and there you are, just standing and giving me a stare blank. I express myself while you're there too unreadable for me, why did I even liked you?"

I didn't look into his eyes, sa kawalan ako tumingin kasi alam ko tutunawin lamang ako ng mga mata niya.

"Jerk."

I said before walking away.

Author's Note:

Bhieeeee.