You're Joking Right?

Let's Just Sleep Tonight

A few days had passed of Cordelia and I not speaking. Granted we lived in the same house, and she was my teacher. I mean other than the strict necessities we didn't communicate. It was heartbreaking in a way, and I turned to Xandra to help. She suggested that I just hear her out because she doesn't blow up often. She said she most likely had a valid reason and feels really sorry.

I decided to hold off until I was in a place to accept. Once I came to terms with it, I was going to approach her. I missed her extra bad today, so I guess now is the time to do it. Today she was my last class, I just stayed after so we could be alone. "Umm could we talk?" I asked nervously as she nodded motioning towards a table. She sat down directly across from me and folded her hands on the table. "I'm sorry I just avoided you. I was just conflicted I guess..." I stated.

"I get it though... I was horrible to you and I feel sick about it. It was all over something so small which makes it even worse. I just- well I guess it's just something I haven't worked through. I haven't thought about fading and I haven't yet come to terms with it. So, seeing it being brought up so soon kind of triggered me" she says softly. I rested my hands on top of hers. She unfolded them to link our hands together as I looked into her eyes.

"I don't like fighting with you. So I think we should put some things out on the table. I shut down when people yell at me so it's not so much what you say but how you say it. I don't really care if you cuss or express yourself passionately. It's just that when it's directed at me, I freeze" I say and she nods. "I understand. I should've never yelled at you, I don't know what got into me. I was just so overwhelmed but that's not your fault and I'm so sorry. I'll work on being better and showing you every day that I value you" she says tearing up.

She was taking this really hard, and I felt so bad because that wasn't my intention. "I don't want you to feel bad Delia, it happens. We're both pretty stressed I mean I woke up not knowing what the hell was going on. And you... on top of all your supreme duties and the academy now there's this thing. It's reasonable that you would be prone to an outburst. You're not under the conditions you're used to and you need time to adapt" I shrug.

"All that may be true but it's still doesn't excuse my behavior. I don't want you to make excuses for me. I'm going to prove to you how much you mean to me. From now on my actions will match my words" she beamed. I blushed slightly at her words and nodded. "Wanna help me make dinner?" She asks and I nod happily as we head towards the kitchen. After cooking and light conversation we head up to our rooms.

I shower and compete my night routine before slipping into bed. Right before I get cozy there's a soft knock on my door. "Yes?" I call out and the door cracks open revealing Delia's cute face. "Come in" I say smiling and she opens the door all the way and steps in. She closes it quietly before tip toeing over to the bed to sit next to me. "Are you sleeping in here tonight?" She asks timidly, "do you want me to sleep in your room?" I ask her and she looks at me slighting pouting with big doe eyes. "I didn't even say no, don't give me that face" I chuckled.

"Well this way I knew for sure you wouldn't say no" she giggles grabbing my hand. We wiggle into the bed and get comfortable next to each other. "I missed this the most" Delia whispered making me giggle and blush. "Really? I thought it would've been my morning breath or my endless talking or snoring. Any of my much more enjoyable qualities" I joke she judges me as she leans up to look me in my eyes. It was silent as we just looked into each other's eyes.

It seems like we both knew what we wanted to do. Yet we also knew it wasn't the right time yet. "I like how you talk a lot; I love the sound of your voice. Plus, your snoring doesn't bother me, I think it's rather cute" she giggles. "Thanks" I say quietly, and she lays back down next to me resting her head on my chest this time. "I want to ask you something" she said, and I could hear the nervousness in her voice as it barely noticeably trembled. "Anything" I reply honestly, and I could hear and feel her take a deep breath before speaking as if she needed to choose the exact perfect words. "What did you and Xandra talk about earlier?" she asks, and I think back to what our conversation was about because I thought Delia was there. Then I remembered I had asked her to leave the room and the reason why. 

"We had talked and decided to break up" I said simply and she lifted her head abruptly to look me in the eyes. "You b-broke up with her?" she asks surprised, "it was mutual" I correct her and she nods taking it in. "So... why'd you break up?" she asks sounding oddly sad though I guess it still is her sister and she wants her to be happy also. "We just decided that it wasn't working out, kinda bipolar honestly" I chuckle and she giggles softly. "So it wasn't about me?" she asks happier this time and I realize she must've thought it was her fault. "Not entirely no" I say truthfully and she abandons the edge of the duvet she had be fidgeting with to focus on my eyes. "What's that mean?" she inquires quietly, "I mean our situation was definitely a big point of discussion" I clarified. 

"Our situation..." she trails questioningly, "You have a lot of questions for one night little star" I joke making her roll her eyes. Her head returns to my chest and I find comfort in the slight weight, better than any weighted blanket. "I promise I will answer all the questions you have tomorrow ok? For right now I just want to be with you and relax" I utter. She whispers an almost silent 'ok my sun' and I smile widely that she called me her sun. I drift off to sleep with a soft smile on my face and the sound of her heavenly breathing.

A/N

This one is actually important and not me just rambling I promise

So I have a few ideas of where I want this to go because I don't have a definite ending yet so it can end up being a few things

a) a split kinda versus story (which I haven't done yet)

b) the reader is with Xandra and Cordelia (I have mixed feeling about it so definitely lmk)

c) the reader with one of the two and a mystery person... (so essentially whichever one you like more + another character)

Thank you to everyone who reads, comments, votes, it all means a lot to me and I hope you enjoy this little part sorry it's kind of short